Bakish Mohd

Baby 기요

2012-01-17T01:16:00.001+08:00

You have no idea how much you mean to me baby 기요

Love you baby.

Life seems so perfect :-)

2012-01-08T23:37:00.001+08:00

Its been awhile. Ages too i shall say. God i miss blogging. I miss my old life. Hmmm should not looking back isnt? 하디... You will always be remembered. 사랑 해요 :-)

Currently busy with my last semester before i start with my internship. Alhamdulillah ive been accepted to do my internship with sime darby. Which i'll be located at the Porsche Centre Bukit Bintang. Im so happy. Thankful to God. And i know that im so gonna miss my friends :-( at the same time, im so enthusiastic to go to work soon as my boss told me that i'll be going out station also!!! Oh God, best part. Hahaha

Im sorry for not updating so much lately. I know they are people who annoyed with me. What i can say is... If you annoyed or hate what i write on here you can just stop viewing my blog ok?

Goodbye...

Much love,
Balkis xoxo

100 days

2011-12-13T04:56:00.001+08:00

Its been awhile.... Oh yes it's been awhile. I know I've been missed. Well.. I'm enjoying my life now. It is much better. Alhamdulillah....

Happy Life

2011-08-23T17:06:00.009+08:00

Hello guys and girls.

I'm back..I'm free.. Please ask me out.. Hahaha I'm pretty happy with my life now. I should not write something sad before this. I know those who hate me are hating me for some reasons. What I can only ask from them is.. Please forgive me.

Those who hate me thank you so much. I've deleted my memories about haters. I wonder how can Allah forgive me if I myself is not forgiving people? I am nobody to ask people to accept me.I believe that only God can judge me. Think twice before talking about others.

I'm not the old me. I'm a new Balkis. If I ever did any mistake I'm so sorry. I mean it. To all. Take note! :-)

And now I cannot wait for Raya. Oh yes.. I'm in M'sia edy! The memories I had in Korea are going to be forever stay in my mind. I rindu Korea sangat2 dah sekarang ni. So next year, I'm planning for Spain :D I don't know why but I really want to go there. Mama is going there this becoming December insyaAllah.. So I'll let her discover spain first before me. Hahaha I've told mama about this and she said as long as I intend to gain a new experience then why not. Like I said, she will always supporting me in whatever I'm doing. Alhamdulillah..

Yonsei result has came out too. I'm so shocked with the result because I don't think so I deserve for the grades. I got an A, B+ too! Oh myy.. Thank you Yonsei University. I just don't know how to thank to God ofcourse and all of my professors. They has helped me a lot. I found that it was very hard for me to understand at first but it turned to be so exciting when I and all the friends there get to know each other and talk talk talk. How I miss you guys though... I'm glad too that my mom satisfied with my result and that's also a reason why she said that I can go for Spain if I got selected and passed for the application processes. LOL Tapi one problem is.. I might be busy sebab I nak graduate semua. We will see how. And please pray for me :D

So guys! Get ready for raya and don't miss a chance for this last 7/8days in Ramdhan :') Grab this opportunity to gain more Pahala and Blesses from Allah :p

Assalamualaikum

I'm sad

2011-08-16T06:33:00.004+08:00

I don't know where I went wrong, which part I did wrong, the result is.. I think you don't like me. Yes.. That is so hurt.. Such a pain to me when I did try my best to be nice to people but people turned to be so mean and hate me for the reasons that I also don't know. Well.. I don't really care if those who hate me are those who I don't know but I really care if people who hate me are those people I knwwwwww :( urghhh... This thing has made me went crazy.. Seriously.. this ramadhan should be my very peaceful month but now? Has changed to be my very sad month :(

I am not a fighter nor a hater. I usually smiled to people who talked bad about me but now, I couldn't handle it anymore :-( I feel awful. Frustrated to the max. Disappointed. Seriously.... Can I cry? Can I? :'((((((

Why you do this to me?

No other word could describe how sad I am.. I can only say.. Sad.. Yes so sad.. Why is it so hard for you to accept me? I'm not a drunker? A smoker? I didn't say that I'm a good girl but at least I don't go clubbing, partying or whatever related. Please tell me why you can't accept me :( That's all!

Sumpah, I never feel as sad as now. I never feel so bad as what I feel now. If I can just let him go and forget about him, I'll do. So that I wont feel so sad like this anymore. The problem is.. I've been with him for 2 years +..and he is so good to me. so good for me. how can I forget about him? :/ Urghhh

Ya Allah...

Snow spoon replace my tutti frutti here

2011-07-29T23:54:00.006+08:00

Yay! Got my bang cuts yesterday by the way. Lolz.. I went to Jethree Salon. It was so nice. I even got lost with brittany to find this salon but its worth. I got a free drink and their services are so so 1st class. I'll come back again for sho. Even though I told them that I am just gonna cut my bang, they served me like I am going to pay for the most expensive payment though! Hahaha I love their services.. The salon itself is so so pretty!! :B

Hi everyoneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :B

Its been awhile since last I ate frozen yogurt. Its my favourite. I can spend like so much on it. Well today, I had a very nice one. I went to Hongdae today with Brittany. We were looking for shoe designer. After all, we had this yummy frozen yogurt. It is so yummy! I was automatically thinking about tutti frutti in Malaysia. Wooo! I am no more craving for it. I got chu Snow Spoon :p Hahaha Its not as expensive as I thought. Its just perfect!

Lol, Ugly! Messy hair..

I was so happy today. I had a good time walking and talking and shopping with Brittany. I wasn't realize that time flies so fast though! Well I can;t wait to be back anyway, I can't wait to meet my new kittens! :D Yeyeyeyeyer! I've bought baju for you baby.. :B Taekwondo like meeee! hahaha

Look at that, I am so ugly in the picture. I was so tired that time. Just finished with our test. yay got my yellow belt and Gold medal! :B Don't mess with me yo, I've got a yellow belt yo. Don't mess with this asian girl! Haaha..

I did recorded a video for Ramadhan and I think its funnay. I'll upload it on facebook. Do check it out soon! :B

Goodbye!

Mah Room! :B

2011-07-27T15:29:00.005+08:00

Dormnitory

The lobby!

This is the view from my room! :)

My desk

Telephone!

My closet/Wardrobe

Toiletz haha

Bathroom

My bed

My room mate's haha

Yeah.. Got that? Hahaha ramai was asking me. Bilik okay? Dorm okay? Haaa jawapan saya. yes2 semua okay. Especially my mom ye. Don't worry. Okay semua :p

Nowadays asyik hujan. I have bought so many umbrella kot. Hmmp :'/ I'm broke. Went F21 last week I went crazy and bought so many thingssssss! Zara MNG sini suma bestt :'(

I can't wait nak balik nak makan bihun goreng mama saya :P I feel lucky, seriously, sebab even my mom single mom she still managed to cook at home when her daughters asked to. She still managed to go there and here and there and here for us. Went shopping with me and jajar. Still got time with work and business. Still got time for gossipping with me. I feel lucky for having such a coolest mother on earth okay. I love you mama. You are an amazing women. I'm proud of you. I should thank you a lot. I've promised to myself, I wont forget to give everything that you need in future when I got a job. No matter what job. I'll do it for you. Its for you. I'm studying for you. I'm trying, I'm working harder each day for you. Please just pray for me to be a better person for you, pray for me to be a better muslimah. InsyaAllah..

This becoming ramadhan, I'll not be able to be with you and Jajar for 1st Ramadhan :'(

I miss you Mama. Take care (=

My Birthday

2011-07-24T22:38:00.006+08:00

Hi Guys!

So for the late update. I wasn't realize that time flies so fast nowadays. Where I already turned 19 like er.. I wanna be 18 forever please. Hahha

July 22nd is my birthday :p I am happy celebrating while I'm here. Such a new experience. Lolz..

I'll be more ahppy if mama were here too for my birthday but I'm fine with it. My Birthday should be celebrated with mama supposedly cause she is the reason why I'm here in this world. Thank you Mama. The one who gave birth to me, the one who fed me and raised me very well. I love you. Thank you Allah for still giving a chance to live and seek forgiveness from you. Alhamdulillah..

Like usual, I don't really care about Birthday Celebration, if I don't have one also I don't mind. It is not necessary for me. Well, I'm such a lucky girl that night where Brittany asked me out for little birthday celebration. I was happy cause she the dinner will count on her. Lol So we went out to Sinchon where is near with my campus. Walked for few minutes to find a suitable place and searching for cake. Brittany wanted to find a place where we can decorate cake. Lol.. Hahaha But we couldn't find it so we ended going to this one beautiful cafe. So nice so lovely.. I'm in love with that place. It is near with the Subway station and next to the Cat Cafe too :) The staffs are really friendly too! The manager gave me a slice of choco cake for free!! Brittany told him that she wanted to order a cake because it was my birthday then the manager said 'Oh its okay I'll give you a free cake then' I was so happy!! Hahaha

I'm so lucky for having such a coolest friend ever. Hahaha Well, Brittany and Lorna sang me a birthday song in Korean, Italiano, English, Spanish and Malay versions all in one night! Wonderful! Hahaha

They made my day :-)

Waffle Waffle!

Self Bar where you can get your free bread or you can use the computer to use the internet for free!!

Free coffee also!

I like this cafe very much much!!

Thanks Brittany :)

Hot Choco for me, Honey Tea for Brittany

Blanket provided for no reason haaha

Press the button to order. Lol

19 Years old girl yo

That's all for me. Alhamdulillah I'm happy. I'm very thankful to Allah that I still had a chance to see this world. I hope I'll live longer and healthier :B

Good moments

2011-07-13T16:29:00.008+08:00

Hello, I actually just got back home from my class? Which my fav I think, Marketing research. I love the way my professor speak and laugh. Lol well at least I found that I love going to the class nowadays. Lalala..Well actually I got nothing to do when hubby is not around. Seriously, I feel like I just don't have to go out what should I do is playing online games at home and reading my notes. Everybody was asking me before how Seoul treating me so far and everything what I can say is, I am awe of everything here. Still..

Seoul is such a nice city I must say. Seoul is full with laughters! Crowded with couples holding hands, I'm already amazed by so many things here. I'm happy!!!

So last week, I went to Hello Kitty Cafe with my friends for Birthday Celebration. Its so nice to be there actually. At first we went to pizza hut had some dinner then headed to this Cuti Cafe for dessert :p It was so amazing.. Pretty..!

Hot Choco :p

This is such a good way to make visitors easier. Haha It will buzzing/vibrating once your order is ready :) Cool is it. You wont find it in KL. Hiihhiih

I wanna have them :'(

The Hello Kitty Cakes :)

We had a good time talking and laughing like nobody's business. Hahaha and I headed back home after the Hello Kitty Cafe. While the rest are headed to Bar/Club? Hahaha So like I went back home with 3 other friends. We were at first walking and talking like nothing happen? and after like an hour walking we found out that we're actually lost? Hahahahaha thenn We tried to stop a cab but we failed :'/ Only after like 30 minutes? We asked a group of koreans on the street then they also advised us to take a cab. And one of them helped us stopped a cab. And finally I'm home after 40 minutes something. Cause the driver don't know and couldn't understand what are we saying so like he dropped us on the opposite of Yonsei Main Gate and we have to walked like 10-15 minutes to reach our dorm. Damn its tiring but its fun for having such a sad/exhausted moment with them. Hahaha

I also went to Jegi-Dong. Lol where you can find traditional medicines?

They used to go to this place for jogging and exercising. Its similar with Malaysia's Sungai Klang but this river is pretty clean and suitable for people to go and spend their time. Unlike sungai klang :(

The blue one is actually a soap. Lol

Chaozzz

I finally got to watched transformer. Lol! Its so good to feel like you are at least still having some fun rather than studying. Lol..

So yeah, that's all for me.

Bye! xoxo

Homesick

2011-07-06T23:47:00.007+08:00

This girl, that I really hope I could hug at this time being. Please

Its supposedly wrote Beijing 2011 Lol!

Hihihih funniest part but hmmpph I MISS YOU SO MUCH MA The one that I've been thinking about since the first day I came here. I miss everything.. Her voices.. Most of the time I miss her bihun goreng..

My taekwondo mates. I'm the smallest the youngest I think. Lololo

Taekwondo was one of the most exhausted activities that I ever had. But yet, Its fun! I learn how to kick people's ass sharply. Lol and how to punch whore's face hardly. Hahaha If you dare to get near and make a problem with me, well I don't mind to escort you to the hospital soon! It was fun cause all of us are girls. My master who teach me is really nice too. He is a korean guy and he haas a very flexible body. He can touch his leg when he stand like okay I don't know how to explain it here. What I can say is.. he is so flexible. Lol! I got cramp all over my body on the night. I am still not used with this kind of gymnastic activities. Cause for the first class we are kinda learn about how to kick how to jump and kick and punch and erkkkk Its sooo tiring. Had to make my legs and arms soft and flexible for the warming up and warming down. Stretching part.. Haihh how I wish I can split my legs and get down my head on the floor at the same time. Hahaha you wish Balkis..

This is what I had when I can't sleep ^^

I WANNA GO HOME I WANNA GO HOME I WANNA GO HOME

Long way to go Balkis....................................................

I wanna go shopping next 2 weeks. Heeee and my brithday is coming so soon. So many things that I wish I could have this year. Hahaha Like seriously and I know it is just a wish.... :'/

Please get your calendar yea guys and girls.. mark on July 22nd :p Well this opportunity to be here dah cukup for me to feel like I dapat hadiah. Thank you Allah. Alhamdulillah.. Syukur sangat. Blessed! :) It just I don't expect that I would be as sick as now. I'm homesick. Seriouslyyyyy... Mama mama mama mama... I really can't go on without her.. Sumpah can cry la like this.. I'm here pun because of her. I've promised to my self that I will always take care of her and make her happy in her life. When my birthday is coming, I was actually not thinking about to get my self a good gift from her or a surprise or something. I just wish I can show her how I thank Allah for having her in my life. I just wish she knows that I really love her and wish she could live until I die. I want to die first so that I would not have to see she leaves me :(

Birthday is supposedly be celebrated with mom and give her a gift and not asking for a gift ok. Hahaha tapi kalau mama nak bagi adik channel handbag apa salahnya. Mama guna dulu lepas tu bagi adik. Hhahahaahahahahahahahhaa So when I get a good job a good salary I'll buy her this one car that is suit for her. I know she is kind of travelling around with her car.

JENG JENG JENG

It comes with a very high technology system and it suites for women like my mom :p Hihihihi No hood so like when mama nak refill water she don't have to open the hood anymore. The hole is outside. Next to the gas hole. Lololo No gas cap too! So mama tak payah nak bukak kunci kereta and buka the gas hole lg :) Its automatically work with a button... it also easy clean paint, numerous exchangeable seat covers of various colors and materials. Which very good for mama and jajar since jajar suka makan coklat and tak reti nak jaga kebersihan kereta lol! It also have compartments for hanbagsss! Its absolutely good for mama since she have so many handbags you know -.- like her business bag is different with her fav one and blabla hahaa Gull-wing doors will make mama easy to load and unload larger items like tupperwares mama yang banyak tu :p I still remember when I was with mama last time at the bank in Bangsar we saw someone push his gull-wing door. cool gila. mama sukaaaaaa!!! Last but not least, this YCC car ada computerized assistance for parallel parking. Hiihhihihi I know mama is such an expert about how to parking her car and everything tapi I bet she will like this car :) SO everyone, please pray for me. I really hope I can buy this YCC car for mama one day!! :p

Seoul South Korea

2011-06-30T20:23:00.008+08:00

My dormitory

My name with my roomate's

Seoul is funn. I really wont forget this memory. I love the lecturers here in Yonsei. They are awesome! I must say.. my first class was with Mr Gil Richard.. He is mexican I think.. my second lecturer is korean. The way he teach and everything are really fun. Very professional. I never get bored. The syllabuses are quite hard though. Hahaha I'm getting nervous for the exam. Seriously..

Everything is super and high technology here in Korea. Even my key for my room is high technology one. Korea technology is unsurprisingly advanced where you can find and access wifi everywhere in Seoul! Superb.. No wonder South Korea is well known around the world. I am not saying that Malaysia is not a well known country but it just you can feel the differences when you are here in seoul. Their technologies are very high and amazing. Like for the classrooms in Yonsei itself have a proper facilities and proper place for student to study. The people are more professional and more to care about what is going on not about thinking and blaming about the past. Lol.. Like the students also are very ethical. Even though they cannot fluently communicate in English but at least they've tried.

My question before have been answered by my own brain. by myself. I was wondering before, why is it South Korea can be successful without using English language as their medium in teaching at those schools and universities. It is because, whatever that they produce such as cars or whatever will be used by those koreans themselves. They are not depending on those imported things. I can say that 85% of those car drivers drove Hyundai cars in seoul. Which that was South Korea's brands. So South Korea's economy are depending on those koreans that use their brands. Korean brands. Such as handbags shoes and else. So their citizens are really supportive for their country's brand and their government should Thank to all of the South Korea's citizen for using and practically living with Korean brand's stuffs. They are really independent and supportive! Unlike Malaysia, most Malaysian loves to comparing Malaysia's brand and critics without helping. They are not even support!! Some of them even told me that they got bored with Malaysia and wish to lives in USA. Oh myy.. You should be proud living in this peaceful country. Democratic country. I must say Malaysia still the best even we're not having a hight technology machine or system or whatever around but still we have some rather than nothing. Our economy and politic are growing faster. I know one day Malaysia will be on top of the world. So what should we do? Please do support Malaysia's brand. We're actually deciding and planning for our own future. Keep and spend some time thinking about this. You will realize.

When I was introduced my self to my new classmates here, I was telling them that I am from Malaysia and they was like..awww I love Malaysia, but I don't know much about Malaysia.. bla2 hahaha well at least they have heard the name of Malaysia before. I am proud to be a Malaysian.

Hubby gave me those two roses :) for our 2 years and 2 monthsarry! :p Lol

That's me with hubby! :D

When I had no time to go for lunch at cafeteria, this is what I had. Maggy with Serunding! :p

This is my hubby :P

Hubby played this besbol game. Notbad..But it scared me.

It's me at Namsan park? Seoul tower! :d

I'm, freezingggg! Its freaking cold!

Hihihihhihii

My favourite. Cheese rice.

So yeah I am very happy. Like seriously.. :-) and I miss my mom and Jajar a lot. I can cry when I see their pictures. I miss themm!

One thing I don't like is.. 6.00 AM here is the same with 10 or 9 AM in Malaysia. Omg.. -.- And subuh seems to passed like a storm. Hahaha Stupid me :'( Ramadhan is coming insyaAllah in peace in another 1 month. Ya Allah, I can't wait to you see you Ramadhan. May Allah grant us the ability to plan and utilize this becoming Ramadhan to achieve the highest reward and forgiveness. Amin.. InsyaAllah..

Bihihi face mask. lol

2011-06-25T13:46:00.006+08:00

Hye, everyone!

I'm happy. I thank ALLAH A LOT. ALHAMDULILLAH

Hihihhi up there are my latest picture. I just got nothing to do. Classes are not even start yet. So yeah.. Its me. Crazy Balkis.

Enjoying my day listening to Bigbang songs and other korean songs hahaha they are awesome I tell ya!!<3

Can't wait to start going to the class. Hihihihihi The weather here is.. sucks! Freezing as in the freezer. And wet like frog's skin. LOL! My room mate is cool. She's from american. She's pretty! :p Well.. I am happy here I tell you. I will never forget this journey/moment!

Seoul

2011-06-23T20:56:00.005+08:00

Finally I'm here in Korea. Its awesome to feel like this. Way much walking made my legs gone bad. Had a very good times.

Landed in Incheon Int Airport around 9:35 PM. Hubby fetched me at the airport itself. Headed to his house in Hannam. Pretty nice place. With a nice view. His mom is good and nice. While his sisters were way pretty!!

Had so much fun here! Classes will be starting on next Tuesday onwards. Weeehee! I miss my mom and my lil sister like fuck I swear. I wanna cry.... I've bought a korean phone which it can only be used in korea. But at least I can call my mom and hear her voice. I miss you mama! :-)

I bought so many things already which I think it is such a waste? Well.. I'm happy here with my dorm, room mate and everything. I thank ALLAH A LOT. ALHAMDULILLAH.

Little Girl

2011-06-12T10:12:00.004+08:00

Hey guys, How's your holidays kids? Aren't you happy? Haha I'm really enjoying my holiday. Where I only stayed at home and do nothing. Well.. Its tiring.

When I was 6 years old, I used to ask my mom about everything and now, I'm 18 and my mom loves to ask me about anything. Hahaha Well.. I don;t mind to answer any of her question, it just makes me realize that she is getting older and I should take care and replace her place and do her job. I know. Its my job. I should study harder smarter for her. InsyaAllah.. Little girl? Oh yes.. I was actually abruptly feel like I am getting better, I am not a little girl anymore I am an 18 years old girl. I can do everything on my own and I'm in the process of creating and planning for my mom's happiness in 4 or 5 years time. InsyaAllah.

Hubby is now not in Malaysia any more. I miss him and I did admit that I couldn't stand being alone. I wanna see him. I knew, this is impossible to happen but as Justin Bieber taught me, Never say Never! Hahaha Oh I would like to share my happiness. Mind to share? Heee I've got my result and for me, it is really a good result. I'm proud of myself. I thank Allah, Mom and friends. I really couldn't make it without all of their helps. Alhamdulillah..

Life is really boring without friends. I should admit it. I am now not going back to Melaka since I am in leave of absence. So yea.. June 20th I'll be leaving. What for I'm going back. Well, I still going for lepak with my girl and boys in KL. Pelita Bangsar where you can find me at every night. Haha Roti Telur satu Milo Ais satu. Weeee perfect!

I love hurling pretty words on my blog and not mentioning about my excruciating stories. I love seeing people laugh and smile. Yes you can call me an obliging girl. Yeah thank you! hahahaha but I have to be in reality where I couldn't stop and forbid myself from thinking and talking about those stuff. Well.. I must say that I am missing my boyfriend like fuck. He is far away and couldn't be reach by phone. I must say that I miss him a lot. I am waiting him everyday to online and have some talks with me. It wont be enough for me. Cause I miss him.. A lot! Faster come back b...I'm bored here without chu :(

In order to take care of my mom's heart, I am following everything that she wants. EVERYTHING. I love my mom.. A lot.. I went shopping with her yesterday, I bought 4 tops with new Sweater and evrything in MNG. I was so happy. I knew she going to say that I'm such a bad daughter since I wasted her money very unlimited. Haha.. Well mama as you know, that I love you. Okay? :) Few days left before I leave. Excited mix with nervous! Seriously. Pray for me guys. I love you all~

xoxo

Balkis

''Every little thing happens for a reason''

2011-05-30T15:54:00.006+08:00

Hold on it Balkis.

I've tried before to accept all of the challenges. But I end up frustrated with my self. Life is a journey. A journey that I and all have to face and keep on walking no matter how hard it was, keep on walking even though there is something that forbids us. Just keep on walking in this journey. Its LIFE. Everyone in this world has their own problem. It's normal. I'm trying to swallow everything. NOW.

It's not my point and I don't wanna talk about it in my blog. It is so pissed me off. I wish I could erased those bad memories. I just don't know why, everyday, in my life, I'll be met with someone that I knew he/she will hurts me. Like what that is just happened. Even though I'm not really can be called as a nice person but me myself still have knowledge and education about how to treat people nicely. Last few days, I did chatted with my old friend and she looks awkward while chatting with me. For some bewildering reason, I've realized that I can't be friend with her any more. She hates me perhaps. Or maybe she just don't need me any more. So I've made a decision that I'll move. NOW.

Too much to story. My stories will never end. I should just move on and be normal. Like nothing has happened. Yes. Erm.. I'm in Holiday, I'd to say that It's quite bored but sometimes I'm happy, I'm free and and I'm happy In my holiday. I met my friends and had fun. But when I'm home and alone, I feel loneliness. I wanna go for an holiday with family but mama is just busy with work and everything. I knew if only she got time to be wasted, She'll ask me and Jajar to go for an holiday. Well, I have to understand her situation. She did that for me and Jajar. I'm proud to say that she is the best. Whatever that I wish I could have she will gives. Anything. My life is just so perfect with my mom, Hasiah Alias.

My preparation for this becoming 20 June is almost done. I just can't wait to start a new life. At least I could release everything that I can't bear any more. InsyaAllah everything is gonna be fine.

Do you know how it feels to let go someone that you love for a long time to just be happy? Love? Hahaha goodbye! (=

I'm writing because I'm bored. Due to lack of activities in my life nowadays. So yeah I'm here bubbling like nobody's business. Just keep in mind that ''Every little thing happens for a reason'' Yes.. It is so true (-:

Lovely Friends!

2011-05-28T00:33:00.010+08:00

My true friends :D

My real friend :')

Thanks to Hubby! He made this for me :p

Isha made this :b

Lasagna from Ilya!

Yeyeyeyer! I'm happy. My holiday is great! I love my holiday very much! (=

I'm glad. That I had a really good times with my lovely friends. I just don't know how to describe it in words. Alhamdulillah

3 weeks left before I leave. Hahaha... Complicated sentence! Well... I never expect that time could flies as fast as nowadays.. I was actually feeling like I just started my holiday.. and now it almost ends. Oh I need Doraemon! I need his magic swatch. Hahahaha... "Pintu masa" Hahahahaha Okay I'm so excited. Enthusiastic like a fat kid! I'm happy spending my time with my precious people. Happy laugh my lung out. laugh out loud like nobody's business. Yes I'm happy with my friends! :D Spending time living at home is such a good therapy for us as student. Sometimes, we might be bored but it is just a moment. Most of the time, it is such a good therapy and its fun. We don't have to worry about money any more, don't need to worry about where to eat what to eat any more. Just open your eyes and straight going to the kitchen you will find your happiness. When I'm bored, I'm happy chatting with my girls&boys and I asked them out. We met and laughhhhhed! Awhhh... I love you guys!

So I heard that those who applied for UiTM and other related are now already started with orientation days? Awww.. goodluck guys and girls.. Just keep in mind that you are lucky, you are accepted to get into UNIVERSITY.. no more high school. Its different this time. You gotta work harder and study smarter but don't worry, I bet you that University life is much happier and easier. Those who are not going for local University, just don't feel like you are stupid or feel like those who get into local University are smarter than you. I tell you, those who enter UiTM UM or any other University are still not granted to be a successful person in the future. It is all about ourselves, it is all about how we control ourselves. So, please, wake up. If you even get 100 A's in SPM, it is not gonna make you any smarter. Just don't let those who get more A than you make you down. It is just SPM.. ! When you get into University, it is different. Really! So yeahh goodluck !! :B

Result is so soon. Get ready Bakish :/ Quite scared.. I'm scared if my expectation is not reaching the level.. Scared of failing any subject.. Scared of the pointer.. Like seriously I need luck. I knew I've done those papers. The only thing that I can do is 'PRAY'... InsyaAllah.. Allah will help me. I'll accept the fate. I just hope, I'll get better this time! :') InsyaAllah Amin..

That's all from me. Takecare everyone! :)

Cinta Melody

2011-05-16T23:54:00.008+08:00

Hello!

I'm a free bird now. I am happy flying with my two wings. Lol

So final is over. I am so happy. No one cud ever describe it for me cause it is fucking good to feel this way. My throat is hurt due to the practises that I've had yesterday. I did loudly reading the notes. Cause I'm trying to memorise them. At last I did it. I made it. Alhamdulillah I can answered all of the questions on the exam just now. I'm so glad. For being free.

Don't he looks like getting fat?! Haiyoo! Mr Tembam bam!

Being with him is the most that I wanted. Since the first time we met till now. I could not stop thinking and feeling like this. This feeling is different. I thank Allah for making me and him together. Thank Allah a lot. Well, sometime we did yelled to ourselves and cried. LOL but the most that always cry a river is me. Hahahaha so emotional. Call me whatever you want. I don't give any single fuck to you. Keep bitching. Goodluck!

One month left before I off to... Aww.. zip my mouth! Hahahaha K IM EXCITED.

I wish, the exam that I've done with will make me happy with a good result. An excellent one please. Hehehehe... I want more and more. So.. I've booked for a dormitory. As a result I've found a good and nice one with a reasonable price. Thanks to my new friend! :D

So I hope, I'll have so much fun and I hope everything will just be okay hehehe InsyaAllah...

Since holiday has started, I'm at home doing nothing. NO work to do. I'm such a lazy bum but then what should I do to prove you that I'm not lazy? Hahaha I wanna meet ady but he is quite busy with his stuffs. Especially his sleeping beauty activity. LOL... I wish I could spend my time laughing and crying *because of too much laughing* with my girls. Everyone like doing their own stuff. I did planned with Ilya and Fiqa and Isha about to get ourselves attended for gathering that we planned we want to do after E-commerce paper but then it went bad when qila had to go back early. So what else could make us feel miserable? We decided to just go back to our home town.. without spending time together after 2months+ stressed ourselves with studies.. Well.. I just don't know what to say.. No word is spilled out that time.. I just not expect that it could end like that. The day that I thought I'm gonna end with smile on sleep turned to be as fuck as the fuck. What I can do is asking myself why.. Okay I get so emo very early.. hahaa emoshit..!

Whatever then, I don't wanna spoiled my mood. Let's have fun! Enjoy with my niece's picture. She's one of the adorable creatures in this world. She's pretty!!!

Just like dream comes true.

2011-04-29T14:16:00.007+08:00

Its good to know that someone who we loved is happy and its good to know that we are actually just did something for our loved one and did hurt ourselves just for him. Ermm...

No matter how bad you are how ugly you are how smelly you are I am still here accepting you just the way you are. Keep that in mind. I knew, you accept me for who I am. No matter how ugly I am among the other girls. But please, I hope you could let me and give me a chance to change my bad behaviour. Boys around me are not mean my special or scandal. I am loyal. I am trying to be honest. So please. They are just my friend.

In peace in another 2 days? We're going to celebrate our 2nd Anniversary. Alhamdulillah.. All the pains and problems, All the joy and happiness that we've been thru together are just the sweetest memories in my life. I love you more than you could do. I've come to realized that you are so meaningful to me. Seriously. I swear, I dreamt of you last night. About you've just left me. And I feel so unmotivated. I just can't imagine how am my life going to be without you any more. I would only cry and cry. That's for sure.

I love being in your arm. I love when you hug me. When I need it. You are just perfect for me. I got berated and yelled from you just because I did talked to a boy. Bickered with you just now and I feel guilty now. In this moment. Feel like going to your place and hug you so tight. I just don't know what's wrong with me. Yeah, you are right, sometimes, things are better left unsaid but erm I couldn't control my emotion. I just can't.

I should change change change change for the sake of not losing you for the sake of you. Yes you!

So world, I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND :p

Good Life

2011-04-29T14:03:00.007+08:00

My favourite!! :B

Durian Puff is so sxhnckshyeudkdielsaoxxxzaoweh12345!

Kelawar time :p

Hi guys,

How are you guys out there? Is everything okay? Ermm.. I'm good here but bit messy and clumsy due to my final -.- God help me please! Its been awhile since last I updated my blog right. Yeap too busy with studies. Busy with boyfie and girlfriends. Hahaha

Had the most boring day with my girls while doing the assignment yesterday but turned to be an awesome day right after I and my girls headed to the Clanthe Art Cafe for dinner. Awesome place. Awesome environment. Awesome foods. I love Malacca's foods. Swear I couldn't explain in with words. Come and try their foods. You will know how excited I am eating the foods. Fresh ingredients! I shall say, it's a great place to be visited.

Girls day out is what I wish I can do in my daily life. Without my girls, I would end up killing myself for being so lonely. Hahaha! Well, I've been thru a lot before. Faced a lot of problems. I'm tired being the one who is trying to fix things to be better while they are just sitting and wishing that I could say sorry to them. Now I feel so insulted. So by meeting my new babies, (Isha, Qila, Ilya and Fiqa) I've realized that there's always have a bright future for me. I just can't give up in life. Still.. My old friends, in my mind.

Assignment is submitted. Midterm's examination is done. Time for final. Get ready yo! And hello holiday! :-) Eventho I knw that I'm gonna fill my holiday with eating and sleeping but well who hates holiday, you tell me.

For sure I'm gonna miss my Durian Puff which is not nauseous to me. I'm gonna miss my Jonker's Laksa :( But it's okay, Mom's cook gonna me feel better when I'm home.

Just hope that my final wont ruin my holiday please? I hope my confidence is running high. Please wish me luck. Hahahaha goodbye!

Hey ladies!

2011-04-03T20:49:00.012+08:00

ey Guys and Girls!

I'm back! I'm in Kuala Lumpur kotarayaku! Hahaha Currently in my holiday. A week ONLY. But well, it is good for having a week holiday only. Since i'm very lah lazy. I should be ready for the upcoming exam which is on the next mondayyy! aaaaaaaaaaaa die! :/

Shopping with my girls! :p

Henna with the girls <3

In the class with henna hahahaa

Thank you Libresse

Thank you LIBRESSE! We received a free sample from them and a free henna on our hand! Hiihihhihihi

As the pictures above. You can see how happy I am How I enjoying my day with them. Awwww... SO happy to feel that wayy~ Went off to Jusco and DP and MP and everywhere in Melaka with them are soo meaningful to me! Hahaha Bought a t-shirt from MNG and pants from Hush Puppies! My favourite! Yeyyy I'm a happy kid!

Headed to Char Kuey Teow place near Hospital for dinner and headed home for Durian session! Hahahaha best part where the uncle duiran was sooo fucking funny. He's the real disaster kot. JUling and very gatall.. Aiyoo he even warned us by saying 'kalau nak kahwin nanti cari orang jual durian, hari-hari boleh makan durian' and abruptly Aqila said 'tkkan hari2 nak makan durian kot pakcik oi' hahahahahah very stupid. ISHHHH VERY GATAL HE IS! He even said if we do call him ABANG we will get a discount price from him.. Aiyooo... can see that he is gatal now? I wish I culd call his wife and tell her to ask her husband selling durian at loroong haji taib. Senang. Hhahaahhaa

Durian Session!

Very pooyooooo00ooo!~

Hey bitch, I laaavvvvhhh youuuu!

Pening sial :s

When we was at the MP we are actually headed to One of the favourite shop for Fiqa and Family to buy their herb tea and whatever herb shit la kan. Then the owner of the shop ask us to try her tea and Its fucking tak sedap and got us headache! Bad headache.. I tell you!! Haiyooo...~ so regret trying her tea, stupid tea..

So the next day went off to class and headed home in KL!!! YEYYY! But before that, I, Isha, qila and fiqa went to Mcd early in the morning just to get our free breakfast from the coupon that fiqa has printed for us. haiyooo.. again eat too much and shitting too much! hahahahaha

So many people Q-ing to redeem their coupon. Anddddddd after an hour waiting at last we got our seat and ate our breakfast meals. Hihihihi so happy speending time with them. They made my day. Real one! Went for class after that submit tutorials and headed home in KL.. As I reached, I met my baby! Yeyeyeyeyer... Go minum2 and had our gossip time. Ady looks so tired that day. Might be tension with his unstable life now. I know he missed his parent a lot. Be strong dear. Nanti cuti you cna go and visit them :)

I really had fun with my family when I got home in KL. HUISHH NO WORD CUD DESCRIBE IT FOR ME!

On the Saturday I went to Pavillion and Sungai Wei! Its been awhile since last I went there. Omg... There's a lot of differences that I can see.. much better than before.. and I really miss those time that I used to went there :) Go for shop with love and had try our new favourite drink, SNO in Pavillion. Very Unique where I can make an order thru an iPad. How canggih la kan nowadays.. and the taste was fucking gooooddd! IM ADDICTED!

At last, after so many times I've told Ady that I'm craving for Pavillion's laksa then only I got the chance to go there and eat it! Awwwww best!!!

Mama with her fish spa session! Hahaha

On the Sunday! I went for jog with mom and Jajar. Had fun travelling around the garden by the mini train that T.T.P Provided for their visitors. Since Jajar can't stop yelling and crying for going there, so yeah I went there with mom just to make her shut the fuck up for only a day! :s

Overall... my life is getting better now. I'm busy preparing for my exam now. Wish me luck!

Happy Monthsarry Dear!

2011-03-25T19:04:00.004+08:00

I'd to make an early entry for our monthsarry, 1 year and 11 months :)

As everybody knows, He is my one and only Boy I ever had, and he is the reason why I did changed my attitude from bad to good. So yeah.. Shall I say thank you? Yes I should say thank you to him. Everyday, I did told him that I feel so lucky for having him. Thanks for your guidance dear. Your love. Your kindness and your everything lah. I really really love youu~

Osem!

2011-03-16T17:25:00.005+08:00

Hey guys! It's so nice to feel like this. I feel very good today. Even its boiling today. Well.. Malaccaa...Always..Like..This..

Alhamdulillah for my new result that just came out. I was so shocked. I made it. Lolz.. Alhamdulillah..Alhamdulillah..Thanks Allah..

So far, my third sem's subjects are actually very very boring. Lolz.. Cause too much reading on em. But well I'll try my best to love them even It is hard when we have to love something that is not interesting. Haha So far... everything is going well in my family, my relationship, my country, Malaysia but not in Japan =[

Japan was facing a very hard time. When 8.9 Earthquake struck Japan triggering a Tsunami Alert.. I just can't imagine how if I were at their place. Oh myyy.. Let us just pray for them :(

I went to Matta Fair last week with my mom and the others. Ishh so rimasss... But the free turkish ice cream has made my day. Lolz.. I was happy licking it in front of everyone there. Hahaha so proud of having a free ice cream. Yeyy! Hahaha even Japan currently is not a best place to go for an holiday, the booth that explaining and promoting Japan was so famous that day. Hahaha Mama has promised to Jajar that if she manage to get an A to all subjects and get a top5 place in class, mama will bring me and her to Disneyland which is Jajar's dream place to go. hahaha so funny.. I just can't stop teasing her. Hahaha Cayok2 Jajar. I know you can do it :p

This third sem was the most tiring sem for me. I don't know why. Haishh...Well, once I finished my third sem later, I'll be having my new experience with new people with new environment :) I'll be away to 'somewhere' for a few months. I can't wait for it. To meet new people, new cultural and new syllabus. I know, It is not easy as what I see. So this will help me a lot. Such as I'll know how to control the situation when I'm alone. How do I need to manage my time and money when I'm in overseas. So I hope, the new university that I'm gonna stay for a few months will not disappoint me. Especially the friends and lecturers. I'll take 5 or 4 subjects. Which all of em are related to my current course. Heee! I just can't wait for it and sometime I feel so nervous to survive alone without my mom with me while I was there later. OH MY ALLAH.. I've booked the flight ticket. I just can't wait to go and I bet I am so gonna miss my friends and Family especially my girls and my mom :)

InysaAllah everything is so gonna be fine. Amin..

God please save me from this agony.

2011-03-07T00:01:00.007+08:00

Hi guys..

I'll be back to melaka tomorrow after lunch. Hmm don't seems happy since I didn't use my holiday time for some fascinating activity. Errr.. gotta admit that I'm busy with mom with her works. Hmm okay I know she's busy for me and Jajar.

I'm about to cut all of my social networking hobbies, since College won't see me breathing clearly. Lolz.. I'm sick of those haters and copycats out there. Especially to you 'wempitz' girlfriend. For some bewildering reason, I hate you so much. Thank you.

Why do people have to hate each other while we know that one day we will end up die and stay down there alone. And nobody is gonna be your partner down there. You are so gonna be alone. You will miss your earth life. Your friends and Families. So use the time while we can to love each other and please don't try to hurt others. Can? Ofcourse NO. Big NO! Cause this is what we called as life. People hates each other. Hatred. Hostile. And the others, they love and live happily. I was wondering, once after I had a huge fight with Ady, why do I need to be so ego? Why do I mad like a crazy pig? Why should I yelled like a police traffic? Why should I stressed myself? For someone that I love so much? While I know I can handle it very well and talk nicely and end it up with hugs and kisses? Think twice.. Appreciate Your Life.

Can I just say that I almost cried when I read a tweet posted by Aznil about there's a girl that act like a boy, killed kitten last week. She is not even killed the kitten with an umberrella but she whacked the kitten by kicked it, and :( Hmm I don't know why? Wasted huge of time googling about it just to view the video even I know I will end up crying like an ass. Frankly said, I'm animal lover. I can't believe there's still have a person like her. God bless you lil kitten. RIP. I wish I could help you but the real, THERE'S NOTHING THAT I CAN DO FOR YOU :(

Oh well,

I can't wait for June. I can't wait for it. I'll be happy. InsyaAllah.

Goodnight.

God deal with fair

2011-02-27T22:50:00.005+08:00

Hey guys! How are everyone? I'm good here. Hehehe..

I got not much more than just going to story a lil bit about my boring life. Lol..

Well, my holiday went well. One week left before I'm going back to Malacca :s Hmmp... This third sem is so gonna kill me. Pack time table with the very nice subjects. Lolx.. Good package, like a Mcd meal set. Pheww..

I met my old friends last two days. Nana is getting prettier than before. I got shocked when I can't even recognize her once she entered Mcd. So yeah, we had a very long conversation and I drove them to our school (the one that we misses). I just can't remember when was the last time I had a huge number of laugh. *sigh

Kays, whatever it is. My life still not as bored as I said. Had a good time with hubby and family. Thank Allah for all of the gifts. Currently trying my best to devouring the bullshit stories from those who hates me. Well, I am strong enough to face em. This is Balkis. I WONT CARE AT ALL MAN.

So...

Result..

Is...

Going...

To...

Come...

Out...

SO SOON..MAYBE A WEEK AFTER I'M IN MALACCA? :[

I've tried my best. I can only hope that Allah will always be with me lah kan and give the best for me. InsyaALLAH :(

Bugggy car at Taman Botanikal Malacca!

2011-02-17T09:41:00.004+08:00

I DID DROVE THAT CUTIE BUGGY CAR OKAY HAHAHAHA AND IT WAS AWESOME!!

I swear, this last day of final was an awesome day for me even before that I did through the hardest time to answer the bloody Macroeconomics questions but well at the end of the day I had so much fun with Fiqa, Qila, Ilya and Isha.. Omg.. I never been jakun like this before. Hahahaha

Paid RM35 for 30 minutes to try this buggy car. Hahahaa Well, my stresses are no more in my head. Lalaalala..

Headed to KL after that.. Meet my hubby and had a dinner in Bangsar Mcd.. I was craving for it since Fiqa ate it inside my car on the way back to KL :( What to do I have to drive so Yeahh.. I just have to wait until I meet my hubby and we go Mcd!! yeyyy! Hahaha Sooo, today is the starting of the day for my holiday. Hiihihiihhi this weekend plan is.. SUNWAY LAGOON WITH THE GIRLS :)) I hope this time jadi lah kay :( Mama pleaseeeeeeeeeee :{

Holiday is coming so soon :p

2011-02-14T22:20:00.006+08:00

I'm a happy kid! :p Yeyy! Holiday is coming so soon :) There's so much thing that I wish I can do. Haha Only God knows how rindu I dekat Justin and my another 2 cats yang I still tak bagi nama hahahaha!

Justin.. I love youu! :)

But I'm gonna miss my bitches.. Sumpahh :( I know, They are always right beside me when I need someone to cheer me up. Take care girls! See you in another 2 weeks times.

My desk in Malacca house.

Thanks for always be ready and stay with me when I come to the most extreme skills. I DID BALING EVERYTHING OKAY BILA GADUH DENGAN ADY -.- Boleh join kungfu panda dah!

So far my exam papers la kan semua macam okay kot kecuali prob stat paper. Dammit.. Why so hard -.- Huhh! Well, I hope, my result would not be bad. I hope I can get better this time. InsyaAllah.. I believe in GOD. Hmmm I'll be back to KL so soon. I know I'll be happy. But I'll be bored too. Ady will not be available on the weekdays and will be only available at the day time (2pm-7pm) on weekends. Well.. I don't have much friends in KL sooo I'll be not going out with anyone lah. Ishhh takpee rest your body kay Balkis. HIHIHIHIHIHI!

Oh yeaaa, those who celebrating valentines kan jangan nak poyo sangat la, I mean thos muslims.. cause I don't intend to know about what you do on this haram valentines day. Okay? Get it? Don't ever wish me HAPPY VALENTINES DAY okay! Don't dare you! I don't celebrate it and never been proud if someone give me flower on valentines. Euww.. yeaaa I know, I'm not wearing tudung, but I'm still a muslim.. and planning to wear it one day.. So please respect me and my religion.. Don't ask me why and don't please tell me that valentine's day is for those couple.. Alahai.. I don't even care! TQ! :)

I love Balkis

2011-02-02T20:40:00.015+08:00

For our monthsarry :p

My favorite act. LOL *At Isha's

Hello girls and boys. Assalamualaikum everyone.

How are you? I'm fine here. Alhamdulillah

Well, as what have been mentioned before, I'm busy due to my final. Was too scared of it. I'm quite clumsy this time. The subjects are more harder. 6 Subjects to cover. I need more space and time. I'm stressed. So I'm here to release my pressure. Even for a moment, I don't mind cause I need it. LOL! Desperate. Hahaha

Since I've been not updated my blog for a quite long time, I'd to tell you about what are the things that happened so far. First of all is about my relationship, I and Ady so far so good. We both love each other. Thank you Allah for always be with us. I do hope he can change his bad attitudes as fast as he can. I know he can change. For Allah, for his Family and for me. InysaAllah :) hmmmp, second is about my family, mom is doing very good same goes to Jajar. She has improved a lot in her studies. Hope to see more from her. Mom and her business is getting better now. She can't wait for her 2nd time trip to Beijing. This time is different. Hahaha I do hope she will be happy and let her body and mind relax :p hehehe Third is about my studies. Omg, this is the part that i would write a little lol. Okay Coursework marks has come out. All good I thank Allah a lot. Alhamdulillah.. My girl friends? Hohohohoh they are still awesome and crazay! Hahahaha wish us luck in exam!

Overall, I bersyukur sangat.

Especially thank to Allah, He gave me everything I need. He listens to my sad and happy stories. Ya Allah, terima kasih ya Allah.

To mom, Very very very very much thank you to you. Proud to be your daughter. Wish I can follow you to Beijing. If cannot this time next trip k ma? To other country la ma, I don't want asia's I want to go to Paris ma, UK kee? South Africa? Italy? oh New York ma!!! LA? Aus? ala too many to list here..hmm I know you've been there before, I mean mama dah pergi banyak tempat kan but ma please let me go too. Teringin nak follow :(( ok enuf dont dream Balkis. huh!

To Ady, thank you for ermm banyak lah nak cakap. HAHAHA ok dah dah

Final is on next week. Next week next monday next week next monday. OMG I DIE LA WEI! hahaha

Wish me luck. I need it. Tq

Assalamualaikum

So far so good.

2011-01-14T23:01:00.005+08:00

Hi everybody! :)

How are you guys?! I'm good here. My baby already in Malaysia. My smile is on my face every time. Haha I've viewed all of the pictures while sayang is in Korea, Oh My... I was so jealous :( Mama, lets go there ma :( Please..

His sister is the one who I adore. She's very very pretty pretty, beautiful :p And his little sister is cute one too. Omg... I wish one day I can meet them and say "Hye, you both pretty" hihihihi and they looks like a Korean.. Ishhh I really wanna meet them :( but I know it is too early :/ But I've met his cousin on the chatting site. Hahaha we did webcam-ed lol! She's a lil cute one also. And very friendly. Hahaha I just so envy with her skin. Very very PUTIH! Ishhh geramm! Stop dreaming Balkis. LOL!

Well, everything is changed. Once he is back. I was so happy. Extra happy. Extra smile. Extra eating. Extra laugh. Hahaha Okay I'm so happy :) Alhamdulillah, thank Allah :)

Since 2011 has came. And I still never update anything about it, so now I'll talk about it. Bit about it :B but before I start, I'd to recall about all the memories I had in 2010 :) I know, past is past but I'm only want to recall and smile and change to be better.

2010 was a year where I started my college life. At first I've chose to go to Taylor's. But before that UiTM has offered me for their diploma program too. And I did argued with mom because of that. At last, Multimedia University is my chosen one. Hahaha Well, so much things are changed once I get into College life. Like friends, life, studies and love. I met so much friends here. It takes me 6 months before I met the true one. They are awesome. Now only I know how much important friend is. My friends are the reason why I'm still feeling like live a life. I've trough so much before kan, like when I was in High School, I do have lot of friends but still they are not the best for me. I dare to say that they are not mine anymore now cause they have met their life out there without me now. Why should I have to stay for them kan? They don't need me. So yeah, I've moved and met the new one. I hope, this time won't fail again. Cause it scares me. I love my girls. After that, I received a car from my mom :) Again it makes me very very happy! Cause, I've been waiting for it since forever! Hahaha Puteri gave a birth, and much more! Enough said, I'm happy with my life. I have whatever that I want. My mom is awesome, My family is perfecto, My boyfriend is amazing, my friends are really cool. Yey! Alhamdulillah :)

So, welcome 2011. I do hope, this year will be better. Please please :( I wish, my mom will always be healthy, same goes to my other family members, Ady, and friends :) I do hope, my studies will be better this time. I know I can. There are so much thing that I wish I can have but errr banyak lah :p So till here la. Goodnight! :B

Life is easy

2011-01-02T22:36:00.004+08:00

Hi guys and girls.

I'm back to the track. Lol quite annoying if I tell you I'm still sad. Okay stop. Why must at every post on your blog mentioning about sad and him? Enuf for what has past. Lol.. kay I'll stop. Okay so far, I'm living my life with peace. Today was dull. I went out for eat then I get back home and here I am bubbling with no reason. K I know it is a real lame. K enuf said, I'm bored.

Yesterday was awesome. Which is Abg Boy's wedding. Hihihihii went there with Qila Amir and Fiqa. I did captured pictures but erm sorry way way lazy to upload them due to my very slow broadband. Haishhh =s Since my final is coming so soon, I bet that I am so gonna be busy this time. I don't wanna take a risk which is study last minutes. Sumpah taknak -.- I'll make sure that this time I'll do better. I know I can. For you mom :D

Last friday was an awesome day too. I know it is such a lame when everyone is busy going out celebrating 2011 but me and my friends are at home watching beyonce live concert on my lcd. lol kay we're so lame. so what? hahaha In order to avoid me and Ady fighting, I did stayed at home and ym-ing with him and not going out. cool enuf huh? hahaha whatever shit happen still i love you ady :) remember that. Waiting is such an awful thing to do. Sumpah I feel like dying when I think about it. Turned up to be so emotional when I looked at the clocks. Lol. kays whatever.. miracles are not going to happen what I have to do now is just stay and calm. InsyaAllah everything will be fine. Allah is fair to all. What goes around comes around. I do believe in it.

This week will be my very nice week I think :) Presentation for computer application I don't know when but what I know is I have to submit the report on this becoming Friday and the drama? Err I don't know. I shall ask my lecturer so soon. Hishh... Oh yeaaaa no exam this week :pp the best part actually but I do have lab test this wednesday ala can die la now :[ this week also I'll be having a class with a new lecturer which is the one who will replace Mdm Mimihayu. I'll miss her a lot. Thanks for giving me such a very nice marks for my course work yea mdm. 32 over 40 for my effective communication skill subject. Alhamdulillah

Actually I don't have anything to do at this time being so here I am. Quite bored with my life. but hmm sometimes life is easy for me sometimes its hard for me to go through. okay enuf said i don't wanna be so emotional. I want to sleep with peace. No tears anymore. I miss KL I miss Bangsar I miss my mom I miss Jajar I miss my cats :( I'll be back. Wait for me kay please :( Goodnight all.

IMISSYOU :)

2010-12-25T12:46:00.002+08:00

Dia tengah bengang :p

Dia tengah marah gila2 time ni. Type panjang gila! Hahaha

Tengah sedih muahaha

Ishhh rindu awak sayang :( Rinduu sangat.. Tak pernah tak dengar suara awak selama ini. Skype pun apa tah tak boleh call pulak call boleh dengar suara tak boleh :( kenapa ni ishh ym pun samo. ishh geram nyaaaaaaa :( by the way I tak lah sedih sangat since you dengan family you muahahha kalau dnegan kawan kawan memang tak dapat la eh -.- apa pun I nak bagitahu ayng since you were not around kan I tak pergi mana mana okay lifeless gila. Duduk rumah study then I tidur then petang I go makan hahaha gila tak ada life kan? phewww! Sepatutnya we go out shopping kan sebab xmas :( you dah janji duluuuuuuuuu =[ sedih la macam ni ish ish ish balik cepat sayangggggg! :( tak boleh tahan dahhh :'( rindu gila!

I can't wait to finish my diploma. I am bit regret, I should not taking diploma kan I should take foundation kot. Kenapa la dulu degil cakap mama -.- tengok sekarang dah menyesal pffffttt! Tapi diploma lagi selamat hahahaha whatever it is after diploma I nak study dekat tempat idamankuu :p hahahaha tapi kak na cakap korea punya business school the best masalahnya aku tak suka negara yang guna bahasa mereka sebagai bahasa perantaaraan hahahaha betul ke eja tu? pfft bairlah. Sekarang ni I should change my attitude semua. I should be ready for all exams. Don't play play anymore. lol lol

So this monday Abg Boy kahwin hihihi dapat jumpa mama yeyeyeyeyeyeyeyyyyy! :D Then I got class semua then got exams :( OhmaiGod! takut :( then new yearrrrrr! Oh my God I CANT WAIT OKAY M GONNA HAVE SO MUCH FUN I KNOW MY GIRLS WILL MAKE IT THEY WILL ROCK MY ASS NEXT WEEK hihihihi I can't waitt! :) TTDI here I come :) Sorry Bangsar, I should leave you for a moment since Ady is not around I don't feel like going back cause it will makes me feel awkward :s and sad :( I know. Everything and everywhere in Bangsar I see Ady :( Camne?! pfffttt! Then a week after new year sayang will be in M'sia already :))) YA ALLAH PLEASE MAKE IT FAST PLEASE MAKE ME FEEL LIKE USUAL AND PLEASE CLEAR MY BABY'S JOURNEY PLEASE YA ALLAH :( I CAN'T STAND NO MORE LIVING WITHOUT HIM :'(

Hmmmp :')

2010-12-23T21:50:00.002+08:00

Anak itik makan berudu, Oh Ady I rindu you :'( betul betul ni :(

For this week, I am not going back to KL and this is my 1st time ever stay in Melaka by doing nothing for no reason. Lifeless gila! :( I need some fun. Little one pun jadilah. Tolong I? :'/

Mama called and she asked me to stay here due to Abg Boy's ceremony this monday. I had no idea why do I need to stay here for it. Well, I dont mind since Abg Boy is one of my favourite cousin that I have :) So I stay here with so a very dull feeling. Okay hye Im Balkis and Im alone. hehehe gembira gila ni. No sms no call semua takdaaaaaaaaaa apa ada?!! :'( bosannnnnnnnn. Study for 2 hours just now then dah penat and im gonna continue my study later at 12 ke tengoklah cause I have midterms for statistic and business finance and I know they are both are now ready to kill kill me. LOL Kay watchout okay you both Im gonna let you shut the fuck up when I gave you the best that I have. HAHAHA Okay crap. ya know. Im bored. real one. i've never been feeling like this before. i feel like i want to kill my self now. lol lol okay. SABAR

I wish I can go out now. But all of my friends went hometown already. Aqilah is going to Korea tomorrow for her family holiday trip, Fiqa also is going for an holiday in Langkawi with family and ME?! Holiday with books and foods? Err bosan gila, mama lets go for an holiday ma. :( Pleaseeeeeeeee lah tension la with studies and everything. Ishh and mama is going to Beijing for the second time later on April. Shitz! Nak ikuttttttt :(( Later when I dah grow up when I dah have a good work with high salary kan I'm gonna go for an holiday every month hahaha Keep dreaming Balkis. Go and please try do statistic assgment is better kan? dah go go.

ok bye

One Year and 7 months

2010-12-03T23:06:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum! Hello everyonee!

It has been awhile since last I did blogged right? Aaaa I miss here I miss my readers *even I don't even know who or even there's no one that read my blog :p lol that's pretty lame for me but erkk I'm coll yo.

So yeah, hello December goodbye November :p Pfftt Please be nice ya December, I need rest haahha lol Oh well, i'm currently having my very nice midterm break I think my holidays so far I mean these two days are treated me well. Hahaha Alhamdulillah, I'm happy with my life now, even I know, I'm gonna be the most that cry a lot after this. December don't seems good for me. Maybe only for him? Whatever it is, I got to face the fact that he is gonna be leaving so soon. Face it Balkis. I don't want to put a high hope on him. I don't want to be a stone. So yeah, I'm gonna be the new Balkis where I will be alone and won't be wasting my money to reload my credit everyday =s LOL! Korea Korea Korea, have a safe trip baby and family. may Allah clear your journey baby :) Goodluck for your dad bytheway.

Let's leave that part. I hate goodbye cause I don't think so that this time is a real 'goodbye' -.- Pffffttt... Okay shadap.

Wanna know what? I'm finally using a new cellphone. Hahaha I was so happy and I just don't know how to thank mama and God that time cause I was too happy with it. Thanks mama! :) I'm currently enjoy my holiday cause last week was my exhausting week. I'm done with the Marketing assignment, Macroeconomics assignment thanks to Aqilah, Effective communication report and presentation and others. Woww! I'm free now. I'm not using a straw anymore to eat. Haha I do hope that my holiday this time will be my eat week. Cause I am actually starving with so many kind of food especially shushi cause I've been craving for it since forever i think. Bloooody helllll! I can't wait anymore. DushhHHH

Before I end my post today, I just want to say that I'm happy and very grateful cause I and Ady has been together for one year and 7 months already. Haaaa don't you feel like time goes very fast nowadays? Lol..

Hijrah itu pengorbanan, Hijrah are changes, Hijrah also are new spirit. Hahaha I have so many mission to be accomplish next year. I've aimed so many things and they are running and pushing my brain wall actually. Lol... I have to change I have to be better. For mom, for him and for Australia :)

Don't mess with my man

2010-11-18T21:30:00.006+08:00

LOL, The title of my entry today is not related with anyone or anything. I'm just currently listening to the Nivea's song, Don't mess with my man. Hahaha I love the lyrics hihihihi

I am so so busy. Been busy with so much work. I'll be away from Malaysia one day :) I'm actually work out for it. I know I can do it. So I need everybody's supports, I need strength, Ya Allah, let me achieve my dream ya Allah.. 1 year ++ to go! You can do it Balkis!

This becoming November 27 is his Birthday. I do hope I can be with him on that day :( Well, I think, I shud go now. hmmm :( Goodbye!

Lovely

2010-11-13T10:04:00.002+08:00

Hey sup everyone. Its been awhile since last I did blogged. So far, my life is getting better. My boyf is doing fine. My mom is doing great. My family is doing very very well. Im so thankful for what God has given to me. So far my studies is doing fine too. Most of the new subjects that I've learned is quite okay for me. I know I can do better this time. Currently, I'm busy with my Marketing assignment where I have to do a video for my company. So I have to berlakon and at the same time I have to be the director haha This is so new for me but quite interesting. I'm so excited actually. We're doing a video about Tupperware since I've choose Tupperware to be my chosen company. God knows how excited I am now haha

Yesterday was a nice day. I went to Sg Besi ate Soup Meletop with mama, Jajar and Ady haha When the food is served to me, Jajar screamed and I asked her why then you know what she told me? She said "Kakak, tengok tu, frame Jalan jalan cari makan tv3" and I was like "Do I care? hahahaha" Well, I didn't know about that actually. Soup Meletop is one of the restaurants that the tv3 programe has visited. Haha no wonder the foods are so nice and delicious.

So today, I'll be back to Malacca. Tomorrow is so gonna be an interesting day. We're going to work out together about the video. 1st location is Pantai Klebang maybe? Hahaha we shall wait and see how it is going. I'm so gonna miss you Ady Zharif. I'm not gonna be back on next week. I will celebrate my Raya Haji later at Seremban so we're not gonna have a chance to meet anymore baby :( It's hard for me to tell you that I will not be able to see you in 2 weeks time but this is reality. I have so much work to do sayang :(

Till then, please take care everyone. Assalamualikum

I'm happy

2010-11-02T20:23:00.006+08:00

Yes I am very happy. My mom is the reason why am I happy now. Hahaha

Yesterday, I and Fiqa was doing something different, when we did something that 18 years old girl wont going to do without her parent of course ahaha At first, after finished with our classes, Fiqa like abruptly told me that she saw an advertisement near the petronas about the new house project at Bukit Beruang Bestari. So we went there to get the number about the house to get more details. Then I did told to my mom then mama asked for the picture. So I sent to her then she replied "Booking" Means, mama agreed to buy it hahahaa I'm so happy like I can't even stop smiling all of the time yesterday hahaha

So we went to the office at the Melaka Raya, done with the booking process and whatever. So, it probably will be ready and finish maybe on the next year. Haaa I'm so excited. I'm so gonna have a new house in Malacca! So I can stay with myfriends :pp I can park my car at my own garage and okay I sound soo enthusiastic. Hahaha My new house is 4 rooms house. With two bathroom. Heeeeee!

So what I can say now is, I'm so thankful to Allah and a big thank you to my mom of course. She always try her best to make my life easier and perfect. Thanks mama. You know I love you Ma!

Well, this is it

2010-10-26T12:08:00.004+08:00

Hey Guys!

Actually, I should post this since last week. Due to my swing mood and my very pack time, I should delay it till today! Hahaha On the last 2 week, I met my sweetie gf, Deqno. Weheee! Been missing her so much much tau :( She followed me going back to Malacca. I brought a new chair, new table this time weee Ya know what, all of that still muat okay masuk into my car hahaha Well, I have a new intention, where I want to study more and more. To achieve a better result this time. Haihh well im not saying that I am not thankful for what I've got okay, It is just that I dont feel like enough with that. Huhh I know I can do it better :) Hmmm I need more support ahaha

Thanks to her. For helping me on pasang those thing yang sungguh memeningkan.

I think, I'm going to kill myself it she is not there help me on doing it :s

So here is the result, :) I'm very happy hehehehee

Zillionth thank you to Deqno for helping me. I know she is the one that going to help me. I know she is very nice to me. I mean, she's very very good honestly wants to be friend with me . Thanks sweetheart :)

I'm currently using the new table and chair now hahahaha I'm going to be very very busy after this. Time table on this new semester is very very pack =[ I'm gonna be busy like a bee. Aaaa

p/s: To my sayang, I'm glad that you are done with that operation, Im glad that you are healthy now. Haishh Only God knows how worried I am =[ I'm a bad gf right, I know I am, I didn't go to the Hospital to visit you, I'm not the one that care about you that time, I did hurt you :( Sorry baby boy for everything. What you have to know is, I really really love you sayang. So much!

BFF is bullshit

2010-10-24T22:10:00.004+08:00

I dare to say that, BFF is so bullshit. Yes it is. BFF stands for Bullshit friend forever.

I don't think so that I need friend in my life, I mean true friend. Do I need to have okay at least one True friend? I used to have one bestfriend before. She's my classmate. We do everything together then at last we had a fight. Hahaha Haihh I've been in that situation before. So, I don't mind if I lost another friend. Cause, human being cannot escape from doing mistakes. So do I. I don't wanna think about this anymore actually. It's killing me. Softly! phew!

Another problem is, I hate those who get jealous with me cause I go friend with their friend. Oh come on, We are not a kid anymore. We are 18 years old!! Haishhhhhhhhh At this time being, this is my problem. Hahaha Not a big problem but for me it is funny. I think, I should move on. Find another friend. Should I?

Well, it ain't easy for me :)

I still have friends. A lot. I should be thankful to God, at least, I have some rather than nothing. Those who are still assume me as your friend, I would like to say thank you so much. Hihihihhi okay la, I don't wanna talk much. I'm wasting my time just talking about this.

Psssttttttt...

At least, I have someone who is really nice to me, care about me, and the most important thing is he loves me more than he loves anything in this world. Hihihihhi

Myboyfriend. :)

If I lost friends I know I still can live my life normally cause I have him to always be with me at times I need, who will be my crying shoulder, my laughing gas. Hahaha I LOVE YOU SAYANG :)

Great life

2010-10-11T22:21:00.008+08:00

See me smiling? Hehhe yes.. Life getting better. There are so many thing that has made me felt tired of living this world but at last I found the solution. Like mom always told me, Every problem has their solutions. So I will not give up before I try :)) Well, I have to thank to mama especially for always be there for me and o fcourse to Ady for always support me in whatever I do.

As everybody know, I am still in my holiday mode. I got nothing to do at home. Some of you may think that I am lucky cause I don't need to wake up early for morning classes, I don't need to seat and listen to the lecturer on lecture classes. Yes I am but deep inside my heart no one know that I am suffer actually. I want my life back. Where I went out for classes, eat at the food court with girlfriends and laugh at every single minutes. Oh I miss my friends. I don't know why and I don't understand why am I feeling like this. When I'm in Malacca, I always thinking about when I can go back to KL and when I'm in KL now I wish that I can go back to Malacca as soon as I can. Haishhh you are so weird Balkis! By the way, please, stop crapping and live your life.. Pffft!

Loveyou boy
Location: Marche Restaurant, The Curve

Hehehehe I had so much fun on that day. I don't know how to describe it on here but overall I am really enjoy every single minutes that I've spent with him on that day :)) We had our lunch at the Kenny Rogers 1st after that we headed to Movie and we had a problem when Ady lost the tickets! Grrr luckily the Manager trust us and he gave us the new passes! Thank God! I am almost thinking about to just leave Ady cause before that I've told him to give me the tickets for me to keep but he refused to do it. Grr see what has happened! We enjoyed with that movie. At last! Haihh thanks God! For dinner, we had our dinner at the Marche hehehe very nice Restaurant. I love that place. Cute and very unique. Marche also has attracted me with so many foods. They also use a very high quality of vegetables and fruits.. I loveee vegetables! All freshhh!! hahaha i went nuts! Danggg!

And I bought 2 t-shirts for me also one t-shirt for Jajar hahahaha I went crazy when I looked at those Shirts arghhh mom please come here :( I need youu and your money ahahahahha After that we went to the Ikea since Ikea is just opposite the road. Find for the stucdy desk that I've been waiting for so long. I've found the nice one. I'll buy it on next week when I with mama later. Heeeeeeeeeeee Thanks sayang for teman me jalan and layan whatever that I want. Heeee

Overall, I had so much fun. Much much fun. I know that I will have so much fun if he is with me. :)) Thanks sayang. Love youu .. And it will be the last time I meet him in this month I think. I'll be away to Malacca this weekend. My class will start on next week. I'm gonna miss him so much more than he does. May he is safe in KL without me. Tc sayang.

Last time

2010-10-06T15:51:00.004+08:00

Last time I met him. 2 Weeks ago kot? Tu pun I yang datang. We had our dinner together then I balik. Memang susah nak jumpa you sekarang ni. Busy enuf right? Okays..
:(

Almost everyday I asked you, Can I meet you today? Just for a moment. Then you will answer it with calm No I can't Im tired. Sorry..
:(

Sometime, I feel like I am not important anymore to you. And sometime, I did ignored you and now, I am back to the real that I can't even stop thinking of you if I didn't see you. If I am now in Malacca, I don't care and I don't mind about you don't wanna see me but now I'm here in KL I'm on my holiday so I want to use this time to spend with you but all that I wish is just a dream.
:(

For me, meeting you for a couple of minutes can make me feels like just woke up from 24hours sleeping. I'm fresh! Ermmm... It's okay.. I'll be waiting..
:(

BYE

Still remember?

2010-10-01T20:25:00.006+08:00

Hihihihi today is October 1st.
So today is my love day.
1 Year and 5 months!

Awhhhh awwhhhh We will be last long together sayang InsyaAllah :)

On May 1st 2009

That day, we both smiled together.
That day, we are happy together and until now we are still together.
That day, we said the words of love. We equally express our hearts.
We have fallen in love. We know that we are seriously together.

Until now we have been together for one year and five months. Proud. Thank you love.

There's nothing much I can say. Not more than just, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH :)

Every relationship, has their happy time and sad time. So do us, sometime, when we get into any problem we both are just can't control ourselves. Every problem has their own solutions. Im lucky for having you in my life. You know how to manage, control and deal with me. No one can manage and control the real me. So sayang, thanks for everything okay? Again and again, im sorry for everything :)

I LOVE YOU

Baby Love

2010-09-27T20:10:00.002+08:00

Hey guys,

Im now in KL. I got nothing to do. I'm eating, sleeping, playing games, texting and missing someone. Like seriously, I'm lifeless once I am back in KL. I want Malacca. I wanna go back to Malacca :( I wanna have a road trip with Fiqa like usual we did. Errkk... Im bored! Pfft..

So yeah it's the reason why am I writing on here. Hahahaa! Okay well, today, I went out with Ama, went to my ex school. Hahahaha then headed to Pelita, had my very heavy lunch. Then went home. And okay can you feel it? I know, It is such a lame. Can anybody help me? Okay don't! I don't think so that I will get a chance to go out to do whatever that I want. Ady wont allowed. Okay face the fact Balkis that you have to spend your time relaxing at home and be a lifeless girl, for ever. Okay the end.

I have another 3 weeks to stay in KL. It's okay. I love KL! Grrrr Actually, what make me happy when I'm in KL is actually if I can see and meet him. But since he got classes to attend and he got so many things to do I have to sacrifice and understand with his situation. Okay, what i want to say now is...

I MISS MY BOYFRIEND

As known as before

2010-09-22T18:43:00.006+08:00

Hi guys!

Ermm, It's been awhile rigth since last I wrote something on here. Quite busy with my Final Examination. Fuhh and I've done with four papers. Left another two. What I can say now is, Im SATISFIED. Thanks God for making me feel good and calmed when answering those hard question. Alhamdulillah..

I smell somehting good..
Awwww...
Yeahh there you are...

Vocation..

I need it I want it I like it Im lovin it. Hihihihihii My aim for this year is, I would like to go for an holiday where I can lay on the beach sand. Where I can go for diving, Where I can dancing alone at the middle of the night with the fresh air. Urmmmmmmmmmmmm! I can't wait! Anybody? Please help me! Hahaa!

The last time I met him. It's been awhile! He's getting fat, I think? Hahaha whatever it is, I get the chance to even smell to his shirt. Weeeeeeee I love himmm :)

See any different? Hahaha

I went to Jhonny, memang dah lama I didnt go for seafood. It tasted good at all and I love seing him smile while eating and I know he's satisfied with them. Hahaha Thanks Mr crab, prawn and the others. You are now living in my bloody toilet. Hahaha

Fish Spa! Hahahaha their bites are the reasons why I am laughing like hell. Psssttt! After all I feel better. I bet that now I can run for 100m again. Like what I did before when i was 9 hahaha

FOODS

I think, foods are just about happy.
Foods are about fun.
Foods are everything hahahahaha

See, most of my pictures are with foods hahahahhaaha I love foods so much much much love! Since now is raya month, im happy and again I said, im so happy cause whenever I go for raya, they will served me with the very delicious foods where I know I cannot even tahan to look at them. Pffft! I love raya. Got lemang, ketupat, dodol, rendang and the most important one is got so many dishes that contains chickens!!!!!! Aaaaa hahahaha and when I got back to Malacca, again I went out for lunch with my eating partner, Fiqa! Hahahaha We had fun eating like hell at the one of my fav restaurant in Malacca. Padang's food! Original from Indonesia! Hiihihiihhi I loike I loike! Thanks Fiqa for always be with me when I want to eat. haahaha

My Fav, Carrot Juice

Yeahhh, these are the meals for two person hahahahahaa

On the night, we went out for dinner at secret recipe. Hahahaha Seee, again... we're eating. Someone asked us, are you guys have a SAKA? Hahahahahahhahahahahahaa the answer is, We dont even give a chance to anyone including our SAKA to eat our food. Okay hahahahahahaha

I got to stop now. Prepare for my tomorrow's paper. Wish me luck kays..

BYE!

Officially missing you :(

2010-09-08T16:25:00.007+08:00

Hi all!
I was extremely bored right now. I need him :( And since raya is just around the corner Mama was busy cooking and prepare everything for raya while me busy on relaxing in my room. LOL!

Im in Seremban now. I bet that you know how I feel now. I need him now :( I dont know. My mind are thinking about something. Im so thanful cause I've done and finished with my assigments fuhh Legaaa! But hmmmm..

Why do I always help people who are always hurt my heart? Why do I always been dumb because of the same person? Haishh

I gotta change myself for my better life. I know. I want to forget about this.

So now, im in Seremban. Heeeeee! In peace in another 2 days more is Hari Raya. I cannot wait for it. I wanna eat a lot of foods! Heeeeeee and I just can't wait to wear those baju kurung :)) Hehehehe Yesterday was my last day in MMU before Raya. I'll be back on the next week. I am also have done doing my presentation and sent my assignments. Fuhhhhhhhh =.= Now I can breath clearly hahaha Yesterday will be my last class with Mr Khudri my English Lecturer. He will be moving to Cyberjaya Campus next month =( He's sooo nice and I love the way he teach me in the class. I hope, he will get married as soon as he can hahahaha! And now, baru I tahu yang Mr Khudri rupanya still in twenties hahahaha!

Yesterday was really awesome. I and my group did a great job on our presentation. I, as a leader very proud of you guys. Thanks for the commitment. Even Im the one who did the slides and ideas but its okay. I love you guys, STILL :) to Mr Khudri, thank you so much for being SO NICE yesterday. You were not asking us anything. Thanks :D You were just saying that its good and you ask one of us to ewat our product just like what we have said before that we produce a plate that can be eat haha then, we dare to eat it mann! hahaha

Now, sumpah I dont know what to do. Even there's a lot of work that I got to do. Hahahaha Im quite worried about my final exam later on next 20th. Hmmp I hope, i can answer all of the question :( if not im gonna dead so soon. Mama will kill meeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Aiyoo! So far, im very thanful for what I have. Liek seriously, I love me and my life now. It was freaking different. Alhamdulillah for it. Now, i just cant wait for raya raya raya ont this Friday! Awww

Sad news :

Jay-Z my rabbit has returned to Rahmatullah :( I dont know what to say. I cant explain it on here how much that i sad and miss it. Jay-Z, even kakak baru je jaga you kakak dah dapat rasa yang kakak sayang sangat kat you. Kenapa you pergi tak tunggu kakak? :( I was really disappointed because he died while im still in Malacca. I am not the last person beside Jay-z before he left. He left without me :( I am really miss you right now baby jay-z. May you rest in peace sweetheart. Kakak and family loves you so much jay-Z :(

Eh, before it's too late, i would like to wish Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin :) To those who know me, please forgive me if i ever did mistakes before or maybe I did anything that you dont like please, forgive me okay :) To Mama, Adik minta maaf ye. Im the most who always made you mad like crazy, I knowww, but ma, I love youu! Selamat Hari Raya Mama, maaf zahir dan batin :) To my sayang, Ady Zharif, Im very sorry for everything, I know, im the most that always creates problems in our relationship, and if i can, i want to bow your feet. I want to seek a forgiveness front of you.. Im a bad gf I knw. Im sorry for everything okay sayang :) Loveyew sayang! muuahh! Selamat Hari Raya Sayang :)

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN YE SEMUA :)

Tak semua gula tu manis.

2010-09-01T19:04:00.008+08:00

Today is a very sad day. Where i need to keep strong for valiant and confronted all of this. I know Im strong and I can deal with all this conjecture, but I'm just a poor girl, who needs love just like other people.

I hope my love will only last with me forever. My heart began to feel confused ever since remembered what he said to me. my tears dripping. extremely sad :(

I tried to fight the desire to continue ego but I failed. This feeling has been crushed. for the first time in my life, I don't think so that, there are people who love me. may have, my mother and my family. I might have to be patient and come aware that not everyone can always be there for me. i love him, more than what people can explain. Because he is everything to me. He's the one that willing to do anything for me. he could not sleep for me, he will wipe my forehead with a wet cloth to reduce the temperature in my body when I have a fever. He will take the lotion and rub it on my skin when I feel itching. See, he is very good. I may be evil? I'm not thankful for what I have. right?

Im proud for having you but not now.
You did hurt me so bad.
Thanks..

"Asal you call I sayang? I tau you tak puas hati lagi, tolong la puas hati you"

Meleleh air mata ni.. Terus terusan mengalir tanpa henti. Tak sangka I orang yang I sanjung, orang yang I sayang, orang yang I bahagiakan selama ini tanya soalan macam tu. Padahal jawapannya ada dekat dia sendiri. Mungkin I tak lagi special bagi you. Dan mungkin cinta kita tak semerah seperti dulu. Cinta kita dah makin menguncup tutup kan? Tapi tak bagi I. Cinta I kat you akan mekar sampai bila bila. Cinta I tetap akan segar dari mula sampai akhir.

Mungkin juga, hati you bukan lagi tertumpu pada I,
Mungkin juga mata you bukan lagi pada I,
Mungkin juga fikiran you bukan pada i seorang lagi..

I redha..
Dengan semua benda ni..
Sampai I sendiri gelak bila I tengok muka I
Why should I cry for this? Why?

I redha you. Terima Kasih ! :)

Final Exam is about to arrive. I began to feel afraid and not confident. My assignment a lot more needs to be completed. Ya Allah .. I'm afraid .. wish me luck peeps!

Happy till dont know how to stop smiling now.

2010-08-30T17:55:00.004+08:00

Just so you know, Raya is coming, MidValley is calling meee! Hahahaha So today, due to mama's off day, I and mama decided to go out buying stuff for Raya! Weeee! I woke up at 8 am today. Mama called and said get ready as soon as before she is arrived home hahaha We went to UPM veterinary first, sending Puteri and Justin to get their vaccines. The doc said, my two cats are both fine and healthy :p Next 2 weeks, Puteri will be having a surgery. So that mama will not have to be worry if she might be pregnant later hahaha Cause, Justin seems so gatal nowadays. They sleep together almost everyday. They are always being together at home and heck, guess what Jajar saw them kissing before! OMG! Hhaahahha

At 2 something, i and mama off to MidValley yaw! My favourite part. Hahahha I bought tops, skirts and leggings again. Hahahha thanks mama, thankyousosososomuchhhhhhh! Love youuu!

And now, im here, grr bored! Ady pls wake up sayang, i needa youu! Im bored.. I wanna hear your voice :'/ Tomorrow, I'll be going back to Malacca. I'll be missing you sayang =[ So much right? Hmmmp and we will be celebrating our 16th on the phone :(( But it's okay, it is just for two days. I'll be back in KL on this becoming Thursday! Weeeeee =p I dont know why, im so happy today. Im glad that im smile now. Im happy. I laugh a lot. Hahahaha I laugh seeing mama wore a legging today. Hhahaahhaahahahaha! I think, i should stop now and continue laughing. Hahahaha! Bye all! =p Muackx! Tc!

Hadi Zharif Bin A. Rashid

2010-08-25T00:13:00.004+08:00

Im not gonna hurting you again. Im promise.

:(

I'll try my best, be the best, for you.
I knw, it's not enough for you to trust me after what I've done.
It's hard to admit that I did all that but the truth is Yes I did all that.
Cause im stupid enough, Im not matured enough,
I didn't appreciate the love that you gave me.
I've done so many things before and now, is your turn.
You can do whatever you like now.
I did cheated on you.
I lied.

How nice are you, you are still there stands for me.
Im such a bad girl.
Damm a disaster to your life.

You care, You love, You did everything for me.
What i can only do after what I've done is just say sorry to you.
I cried to make you pity on me and after all of the drama, you'll says to me that you love me
See, how nice, how loyal, how patient are you with me.
Im so touch.

I love you sayang. That's what i can say now.

In peace in another 6 days, we will be celebrating our 16th kan sayang?
Don't you feel that time goes really fast now?
Well, im so glad that you are still mine
Thanks sayang for everything..

Now, im smiling, reading all the comments on our MySpace accounts
Hahahaha laugh out loud..
It's freakin lame.
LOL!

I love my Mom more than anything in this world :)

2010-08-22T20:07:00.005+08:00

My mom is the coolest women in this world.
My mom is the most greatest gift from Allah that I ever had.
I sayang my mom so so much more than she does to me.
Loving you is like a food to my soul ma!

You such a wonderful and amazing mama in this world. You are the one who gave me anything that i asked. Since i was 8, you are the one who sang me a song before i close my eyes every night. You thought me everything. You are the reason why i am still alive. What i can say is, you are the most important person in my life. I love you more than others do.

Adik banyak salah dengan mama kan. I would make a change in your life. I'll make you happy. Till the end of your life. I wish, Allah would give me a chance to do it for you. I'll make you proud of me ma! Whatever you want, you wish, I'll try to do it for you ma. That's my wish, my dream! I promise, i wont make you cry. Even once ma! Adik loves you more than anyone loves you :( I'll get a great result for you, I'll find a better work for your future ma! I want to see you relax at home in another 5 or 6 years. That's my dream mama, my aim the most important thing that i want to achieve in my life ma! I would buy everything that you want. I'll give you a better life. What you have just to do is stay at home and relax :) You dont have to go for work anymore.

You always told me that, you dont want more, you dont need my money, you are just need my time, and you always told me, once i get older and get married, pls dont ever forget about you and you want me to be always remember you. But ma, I'll do MORE than what you wish. I'll bring you go for an holiday, and buy everything that you want. I know, you still can afford yourself buy everything that you want. But please, give me a chance to do all that for you. I really wish i can be the one who can makes you smile at the time you need. And i dont wanna see you sad even a second ma :)) I also want to bring you to go to Makkah for a second time ma!

Please, pray for me mama! You are the one who really understands me... What i can say for now is, I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING MA MORE THAN YOU LOVES ME MA MORE THAN ANYONE IN THIS WORLD LOVES YOU.. I HOPE, YOU WILL ALWAYS BE HEALTHY AND STAY STRONG MAMA... ADIK LOVES YOU MAA :))

Ya Allah Ya Tuhan ku, Kau lindungilah Ibuku ya Allah, Kau Ampunkan lah dosa2 yang telah dilakukannya ya Allah, sesungguhnya kami semua hanya lah insan yang lemah yang sering melakukan kesilapan ya Allah..Kau panjangkanlah Umur Ibuku Ya Allah.. Sesungguhnya aku tak sanggup menghadapi kenyataan yang Ibuku tiada lagi nanti, tetapi, sesungguhnya kau telah membuat keputusan untuk menarik Nyawa Ibuku sebelumku, aku redha ya Allah, dan Kau tolonglah tempatkan Ibuku di Tempat2 orang2 yang kau Muliakan di sisi mu Ya Allah...

Amin Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin...

I dedicate this special to my mom. I just want her to know that her daughter really proud of having her in her life and i just want her to know that her daughter really loves her till the end of life :) I LOVE MY MOM :D

He's my world :p

2010-08-19T06:51:00.004+08:00

I got nothing more than only have my family and him :))

I still remember, when i was 17, that time, i used to be a tuition kid. Pheewee same goes to you. We are in the same building every week. Every class too :) You are my tuition mate actually right. Unfortunately, we dont even know each other yet that time. I am so intend to go for tuition on weekend are all because of you. Hahaha yes, it's so lame. It start when i saw you seating at the last row in the class. With your weird sweater. You are busy texting someone while eating chocolate. I told to my friend that you are so cute yet too shy to even looking to your eyes. Hahaha after a several days, I never expect that you are my friend is friend, cause i found your MySpace account on my friend's list :) I did added you. Then we start knowing each other. That time, you are not single. But im still single. Knowing that you are not single make me wont put a high hope on you. I have mine that time. Just like, I dont have a feel with them. Deal with it that I dont intend to be anybody's until i met you :) My friends know that i cant even frget about my exboyfriend. So, meeting you is like meeting a new future.

That time onwards, we did talking thru MySpace, hahaha you asked me, when am i free, when am i able to meet you bla bla bla haahha I still remember, i called you rempit that time hahaha Thennnnnnnn, you gave me your number hahaha and our first date was at the MidValley, still remember are you? You came there with your school uniform. You skipped school. Hahaha We watched movie that time :)) For almost 2months we know each other, we went out together, went for movies together and our favorite place to watch movie is at The Garden. Ahaaa cause you love their seat kan sayang? ehehehe usually, after tuition, we will straight going to The Garden and watching movies hihihi Until one day, you told me that you have a girlfriend. Its happened when i asked you that night "Who is the girl on your first top friend?" Then you answered me with calm, "She's my girlfriend" I was like crying really hard that time. We are just got back home from movies that time. I still remember on the day i asked you about that, it was the first time ever you hug me on the cinema. On my way to go home, we texted like a lovely couple. You are very worry about me. You asked me either I already reach home or not. You asked me, is there any people that disturb me or not. I never expect you will gave me the very cruel answer after what you have done to me.

I left you after that. I never text you anymore nor of contacting you on MySpace. I ignored you very hard. After a week. I received a massage from you. You sent this to me "Hey" then I replied "Hey yeaaa" then you asked me, how is my life goin so far and bla2 until my turn to ask, then i asked how about you and bla2.. then you told me that "Boring, cause im single now" I was like, "Oh i see, dah single baru cari i" then he's like silent for a few minutes, he takes a long time to reply my massage. Then he replied me and said that "Oh no no, i rindu you" Haahahha so that time onwards, we back to the track hahaha we met at the tuition every week. But this time is different, he really treat me way way different than before hahaha imagine, he being so nice when he rather sent me home by accompany me on the LRT from Pasar Seni to Bangsar then he went back home from Bangsar to Melati back hahaahaha

He's soooo lovely hahaha until one day which is on May 1st 2009, he asked me trhu SMS, "You, nak officially couple today or tomorrow? If you nak i cakap depan depan you esok la kita couple, if not now je la eh heheehe" so cute that time hahahaha then i said "You ni lawak la hahaha" then he said "okay eh sayang?" hahahaha then i only can sent to him a smiley icon hahaha He's soooo sweeeeeeeeeeet! Muuahhh Actually, I can feel like he likes and he wants me to be his gf before he asked me that question so that i never feel so shocked or whatever that time. Haahaha he told me before that he likes me, he did touched my hand when we walked. Hahaha

From that day onwards, i knw that he's the one that going to be with me at all time. Until now, after more than a year, he's still here with me whenever i need him he's there for me :) Thanks sayang for everything, thank you so much! He's the love that i find for so long, he's the perfect guy for me. I love you sayang, till the end of my life :')

I miss you b :')

2010-08-16T21:33:00.003+08:00

Last week, Ady came to Malacca! Oh God, i was so happy that time. Alhamdulillah! He came for me :) hehehehe we went out breakin fast together. Walked together. Haish I am so in love hahaha i miss him way way much that time because it was almost 2 weeks i never meet him :/ So sad. Hahaha We had our meals at the kenny rogers. Yummy! It's been awhile since last I ate their chicken with mama hahahaa After that we went to the Jonker Walk :p That was also my first time ever went there haahha and sucks! wasted for almost 1 hour just for findin the carpark grrr Reached jonker walk at9.40 something then walked for almost 45 minutes and at last ady bought something that looks like samurai pedang hahaha im searching for a nice necklace but heh non of them can attract me! pffftt anyways, what i can say is, i really happy with him that day. thanks a lot sayang, for being so nice and you has succeed on putting a smile on my face haahhaa

I love him so so much, even i dont have so much friend, im still okay with it as long as he's still mine and be with me all the time :) im glad that Allah gave him to me. He is such a very nice boyfriend that i ever had :) Thanks Allah. Alhamdulillah!

Haaa about my result haahahha im sooooooo shock when i see my result. i tak percaya actually hahahaah most of them are quite okay for me actually. hahaha i never expect that i can get those marks hahaha overall, its still not enough for me. i have to study more and practise more. its still not enough balkis!!! cayok2. ahahha thanks to all my lecturers and to all of my friends. and not forget to my mom and ady :)) you both has helped me a lot. you both gave me a motivation and support me at times that i need. thanks mama thanks sayang! Thanks to Allah for all =]

Hopes

2010-08-12T19:47:00.003+08:00

I wish, everyone would be with me at time that i need.
I wish there will be someone with me when i need.
I wish i have a wonderful girlfriend.
I also wish i would have a great life.

But now? Do i have all that?

:)

It's okay. Alone are always be with me. I don't have problem with it. I eat alone at home. I laugh alone at home watching SPONTAN. I sleep alone. I turn right i see my teddy bear I turn left I see my room wall. Ya I know, It's so nice :D

Why can't I have someone or something for permanent? Until forever and ever? Why are they have to move? And leave me? I don't know why, I don't know where i went wrong. What i can say is, I WISH I HAVE SOMEONE. That's all that i need. Nothing much.

Im still lucky and I considered my self as a very lucky girl. It's because, I have an amazing family, A wonderful Mama and a lovely boyfriend. Still, they are always there for me.

I think, here is not the right place for me to stay for longer time. As I reach here, I started to cry, Im alone. No one with me. Yes no one. Malacca fun but not for me. But it's okay at least im trying to face the fact that not everyday could be yours forever :)

Thank you

xoxo, Balkis

Baby

2010-07-31T21:39:00.003+08:00

Saturday, July 31st

Off to Sunway at about 3 something, after went to the wedding ceremony somewhere here. Had our lunch at A&W where i dont think so there was a very nice place to eat but yeah it was Ady's decision. I just followed. A&W's staffs was very not professional, they didn't clean the tables where it was fulls with the jerky plates, tissues and everything. The foods was lame. Sucks! No wonder why there was not full with people where most of the people around choose to go to Mc'D rather than A&W. Pfffffffffttt! Even, the chilies sauce are FINISHED! Pffft! They dont even refill the sauce and when we asked for the packet sauce they did a stupid face to us. Pffft! I wont go there anymore. I swear I wont go to A&W anymore, unless if im dead hungry grrr! After had a very lame lunch, i and ady went to the sunway lagoon hihihihii i met isha, azym, sara lisa (i've been waiting so long to meet her actually) and the others. Heeeeee after half an hour i think, there was raining lucky they provide us with plastic raincoat. Heeeeeeee and okay i did listen to the crappy things that the emcees talked. pfft!

TIRING, EXHAUSTED, TIRED, SWEATING, SMELLY

And now I just got back home from MTV World Stage. Haaaa it's been awhile since last i went to the concert. I cant recall which concert. Im again going for concert where i think it was so different. Its not like the old me where i used to jump and screaming like hell enjoy the concert, now, i was so different! Just now, when i was at the concert, im being weird, when i didn't jump or even enjoy the concert. i was standing like a stupid ziraffe. Then i did screaming but then i went silent after a few minutes? Pfft and i was with my 4 friends only. Can you imagine that? hahaha it was so so much different. I still remember, when i was 15, 16 i used to be very loud person. I laugh out loud. I do stupids jokes. Hahaha now, im 18, i didn't do those thing so much. Im more to be like errr okay you know what i mean. I cant stand so long at the concert anymore. I cant even stand beside someone who is smelly. Hahaha so i did went home after an hour at the concert. And it's not worth at all. Hahahhaha well, i dont mind, as i feel better then i dont think so that by going back is such a waste :) Thanks to sayang, for always be there for me, for being my bodyguard and pfft kipasman hahahaahha

Overall, i really had so much fun with you sayang and thanks for the dress. I love you, so much untill the end of life :p Tomorrow is our next love day kan sayang hihihihihi Thanks again for everything. Muuahhh!

It was him, the one who made my days. Let me tell you how i feel. The secrets inside my heart. I'm so in love with you. All of my life is for you, my one and only. I was thinking, how i would be without you? Am i able to live? Oh i cant! My life is you, You is Me and Me is You.

It's my birthdayyy!! :O

2010-07-24T15:59:00.005+08:00

Yes, July 22 is my birthday and tq for all of the wishes! Love you all =] Well now, im home. In Kuala Lumpur Ohhh I love KL ! Hahahaha i have to admit that now im starting to miss and love Malacca haha i think it is because of my girls yang damm crazayy! Heee It's true, that people always said that true friends can be found from your University life and yes i've found mine :) School one? Sucks! Seriously, i hate my school time. They dont even know how to appreciate me and they did FORGET about me. Lalalala i dont wanna think pls why again im thinking of this. Shit!

Thanks to those pretty wishes from everybody. I didnt expect, after loosing a friend, we will found a new that is much better. And now, my girls has prove it to me and i believe that i deserve them :) All of my friends in Facebook was a good one too. I sayang korang semuaa!

You see those pictures above? Yeaaaa OBES CAT hahahaha the name is GARFIELD but family used to call him APIL hihihihi Really cute right? I knw and yes geramm! I was like screaming when i see him lying his body front of me. He's actually not mine. He's my Uncle's cat. Oh My God, he's like a real huge cat that only know how to eat and sleep. Hahaha I wish, Justin can be fat as fat as him. pfft!

Watching American Pie :p

Seeeeeeeeee, im hurting you know haahha two days before my birthday kan, my girls did prank me like sumpah very mean. They stole my car key, then i did report to the guards that i lost my car key, then the guards locked my car tyre!! hahahaahha The next day, they was acting like they don't wanna do anything to me. Then we went back home. Thennnnn TADAAAAAA~ They used the flour at my kitchen then throw it to ME!! hahaha i was like crying cause im scared if my hair would damage. Grrr! Then we laugh our butt off hahahaha! I just dont know how to story everything in here. What i can say that, they are really mean and pfft I still Loving them so muchhh more than they does to me. Thanks God for giving me the greatest gift, they are my life now. Thanks God!

That night, i and fiqa was not sleeping. Eh lupa, Isha too! We are really awake for you BUSINESS MANAGEMENT. We have to submit the assignment on the next day which is on Sunday, then heading hometown la kan. Haish imagine, we didnt sleep until the next morning. Had a sleep for a few hours. Then woke up at 9 something. Went to the campus sending the last minute assignment hahahha

Alhamdulillah, 4 papers has done. And now is my holiday week. Next week will be my Business management paper. Where i have to score an A! Hishhh! Im Glad and very thankfull to God that now, my life are way way better than before. It's like a new lamp bulp has switched into my life now. I can feel the differences now. It's so much much better. Eh wait, im planning to go to genting this week. And pls make it real! HAHAAHHA Yesterday was awesome, spending time with Ady love :) He's getting more handsome than before. Omg omg im goin crazay with you baby. You have a very wonderful eyes with an amazing smile. Weeeeee, i love you baby.. I wanna see you every time im open my eyes in my future. I wanna hug you whenever i wanna go for works later. I wanna be the last girl in your life. It's my hope, my aim. I love youu today, tomorrow and forever :)

I wanna go home.

2010-07-20T10:23:00.009+08:00

Basketballers

Volleyball players

My Girls

There is my Justin :D

My Permanent Passenger

Nice Ass Baby

It has been more than a week im here and this is my first time, not going back to KL more than a week. Oh My God, I miss KL and everyone there :( I wanna go home :'/ I wanna wanna wanna meet himmm tsktsktsk :'(

Tonight, is my Microeconomics exam which i know it is not as easy as ABC hahhaa Well, im trying to read those notes but heh blame my eyes and my brain cells. Psst it's not working at all! I cantttttttttt even remember the introduction hahaha So yeah it is the reason why i am here updating my blog again and again writing the very lame story ever. Thank You HAHAHAHAHAHA

I went to UiTM Shah Alam last week with my netball team and the other's MMU students. For the Sport Carnival 1 Malaysia :) Heeeeee even my team didn't win the game but we are really proud of our Volleyball team hahaha We had a lot of fun that day. We shouted till no more voices. We laugh off our asses hahaha and the most happening one is, about the BUS! OMG! It's just so pissed me off! No air conditioner and been trapped for more than an hour. Imagine, how we are. Sweating like a fat pig :s Thanks uncle bus for the Sauna Service :s Shit! It's okay we still had fun with the Sauna service LOL! Hahahaha

The next day, went to my Kampung at Rembau Negeri Sembilan with Isha. Headed to PakTeh's house cause mama was there too with annoying Jajar. Then after awhile, went back to Malacca. And we're using the old road. Where i passed the Simpang Empat tol first which is mean that i don't use the highway road hahaha Nice view and experience. Pfft! Eh i pay less for the tol okay Bluek! c(=

Overall, i had fun a lot and yes thanks to my friends :) Love all of you.

GOOD NEWS

1) Ady has changed. Pfft he's not the old Ady, where he used to mad at me if i did went out at night right? Now, no more. He has changed a lot and did understand me well Love you B! Muah
2) Next week is my midterm break. Awww one week holidayyy yeayeayy!
3) And this month is my Birthday Babyyy! Hhaahahaha i cant waittttt !!! :DDDDDD
4) Pls do view this web
http://www.mestimau.com/2010/07/universiti-ipta-dan-ipts-terbaik-malaysia-2009/
HAHAHA bangga ni muahahaha

Okay, im gonna stop now. Pfft
Bye Bye

Haihzo!

2010-07-15T16:09:00.004+08:00

They are my laughing gasses. I lololove them a lot! Hihihihi

I am so lucky for having them in my life. These days, Ady and Me are not like the old us. We had a fight almost every hour :s and it is so pissed me off! I know, we are not like the old us. Having a great time almost every day. We are NOT at all now. Pfft :'/ What a lame, he often asked for break up. I used to not answer at all. Easier. I wont and i know i cant. It's like a very last decision that i would like to make if i have to in this world =.= Well, he's my life.

Sayang, I know, we were not like the old. I know i did so much bad things before. I hurted you. I lied. I did cheated once. But not now baby. I am not the old me. I'm a new Balkis. Please, trust me, put a trust on me like what i put on you. Please, don't change baby. I see you change every day. Your behavior are not the old one. I miss the old us like freaking much :( I wish, me and you will be last long forever sayang. Wish you can understands my situation in here. Im here for my mum, future and us b :[ Please trust me :/

So far, everything goes great. Alhamdullillah, thanks Allah!

I'm glad for having all of my new friends in here. They are damn crazy just like me hahahaha Malacca has nothing. I think la. But some people told me that maybe i'm still new and still not exploring Malacca so yeah i think i want to go for some road trip with my friends later. On weekend perhaps? hahaha I wanna go and have a lot of fun just like what i have everyday :)

Pffft, I've just done with my two papers for my midterm test. F*ck! Not easy hahahaha! Well im fine with it. I'll try harder for my next test hihiihi May God bless me and my friends. Bye

Life getting betterzz

2010-07-03T23:43:00.010+08:00

Pssstttt i dah sihat nii! Hiihihihhi im getting better with my life now. So far everything goes fine. Alhamdulillah :) I love mmu now. HAHAHAHAHAHA my new friends are damm rock my ass :p They know how to make me smile. They know everything about FUN :) Muahhhh!

I play netball. Still being as a center. Pffft! My team are rocks and okay pssst bising hahaha

Isha, my another awesome girl. She knows how to make me laugh and yes she is my bestfriend now :) I love her! Ops, thanks to Umairah, itu topi dia hahaah

Telur dadar mayonis! Yummyy =p

Zharif :p My baby boy

My Bibi and my Bubu :p Muah

Ya Allah, terima kasih ya Allah, thanks God, Thanks Allah, for giving me so much joy and happiness now. You gave me an amazing boyfriend, Ady, You gave me a wonderful mama, Hasiah Alias, you gave me a perfect family. You gave me an awesome little girl , Jajar, Ya Allah, terima kasih sangat2 aku bersyukur sangat2 :) Alhamdulillah!

I macam bersyukur sangat sekarang ni, semua nye berubah sekarang, i happy je hari2 macam kawan2 semua best2. nak bandingkan dengan kawan kawan lama yang jeles sana sini lupa kawan semua. Kat sni tak ade prinsip tu semua. Kawan lupa kawan tak ada :) I realised now, that friends are everything and a good friend is a friend that know how to understand other's situation and goodbye old friends :p

Im happy yes im happy. Well, i think im back to to the basic, im normal now. No more sick no more tears :p I love my life.

Last week, i and Isha cooked. Hahahhaa we had a very nice dinner together :p we did cancelled our plan to go to Pulau besar for the Outrecs Camping due to the some of the difficulities that we had. Then we decided to go back home in KL. We took a bus. And again the bus is late. Thanks to Yasheeka for sending us to the Malacca Central and oh thanks to Azym too for fetching us at Bukit Jalil even you came late and yes thank you.

Today i had fun with my mum, went out to MidValley, bought some stuff, went off to Cotton On again hahahaa even, i've bought a skirt last week with Ady at the cotton on but yeah i did it again, off to cottton on with mama much better i can choose much more. omg omg i went crazy, i bought two tops, and two leggings. Thanks mama! Badly, the shoe that i want are out of stock :( shitzzz! And oh i met Ieraaaaaaaa, she's fat noww! Damm i geram dnegan her body haahahaha Then had a very awesome lunch! And eeh late lunch haahaha eating ayam golekz with Carrot Juicezz! Then went home and texted2 hahahaha that is my life now. Pffttt =.= next week i'll be home again and do the same routine. Lol!

Thats all i think. Nothing much that i have to story cause im out of idea. So yeah, i end it now. Bye guys and girls :)

Dead and gone

2010-06-27T20:58:00.010+08:00

Yeah, they are really dead and gone. Thanks and congrates! I really mean it man. And goodbye to those who are thinks that they are gone. Those who are reading this, if you feels like im heading this for you then fine you can go. TQVM

I dont know why but i am very upset. All of my friend that i used to laugh together before are gone. They are dissappeared. And it is disppointed me, i mean it. I can feel the enthusiastic sounds when i heard that they are meeting new friends or even have a new boyfriend or a crash or whatever but they are not feels like what i feel. They are nooott.. They are not even care about me. Even when im onlining, facebook, or ym or whatever online sites, they are just ignored me. If i did talked to them then they will only reply it after an hour or just like busy term of replying and after a few sentences they posted to me they will ended it with ths "oh ok la nak masak, k bye""oh ok la nak mandi, k bye" Weird? But hell this is true. I dont know but they are so, ultra annoyed to me now. Grrr! They are not honestly wants to reply it actually. They act like they hates me. They are only expect that i am selfish, because i am busy with my boyfriend. Actually they are just not understands my situation. Well, that is fine for me. I dont wanna think. It doesnt benefit me anyhow, it is just a waste. LOL! I am actually did tried to contact and tried to be friendly to them again but it is just not more than just a piece of shit. They are not even ignored it but they did not even care. I think, its better to talk to someone who is my new friend rather than my old ones. They wont be able to even reply it with those nice words. So yeah, i have to move on. I do hope, with all the new people that i met, i'll have a new life with them. InsyaAllah..

Sometime i feel like, its better being as a baby rather than as a teenage, they cry when they wants something, they smiles when they are happy, they sleep when they are tired. They are easy! Everybody's loves them. Hahaha they are too cute grrr

See, it is easy being as a kid, they had a fight and they back together after 5 minutes hahaha

Kids dont know how to cheated on thier friends, they are just know how to play and being happy together. Kids life are just fun! They know what is friends stands for.

Today i had a lot of fun and totally happy today. i love my life now. so much joy. Today, i had a very nice day with new peoples who are very friendly and very funny which is my netball team hahahahaa the seniors are so sporting, i dont feel the gap between us. They are super committed to us and very kind of teaching and telling us everything that we asked. Yesterday, I and Kak Yaya took a bus to got back to malacca, so yeah our bus arrived at 10pm and my bad im late for it and almost miss it and me and mama and jajar did ran like a stupid snails at bukit jalil last day hahhaha imagine, my mum running. hahahaha

I wont facing the same problem for the 2nd time. Where i did missed the bus. It was happen when i was at the melaka central that time, well this is my frist time took a bus from Malcca to KL without a friend. Imagine la, with all of the things that is very heavy for me, i am alone, waiting like a stupid beggar and yeah at last, i found that i was in the wrong platform like shitttttttttttt no wonder there is no bus to KL!! Grrrrrrrrrr! So yeah i decided to take a bus if i have a friend to go back with me! Pffft thanks to kak yaya for being such a good bus partner hahaahaha

Now, is almost 9.30 right, im here still not going for the shower yet hahaha but who cares right? Nobody here! Hahahaha I had a free dinner today thanks to kak yaya andd now, im thinking about hmmm you know who is he right...

The boy that i really love
The boy that i really care
The boy that i really want to be with forever
The boy that know how to makes me smile
The boy that told me that im beautiful
The boy that always told me that he loves me more than anything
Yes, it is him,

ADY ZHARIF (:

My other half is him (=

I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND. Clear here?

I cant even think, how will i be if he's not around anymore. When i was thinking about Yaya, i think, most of us know about her. She lost her bf :( i cant imagine if i am her and im in her condition. I cant i cant i bet i'll die. If i did brokeup then its fine i'll be okay but if he left me because of he is dead oh man thats hard. Its a love man love not a joke its a love, its like dying if i lose it. Im realize now that he means a lot to me and i dont think so that i can live without him in my life. I can feel the sadness that yaya owns. I can feel how its hard to beleive that her bf is not around, i understand how bad she feel now and last i know, that even she smiles, doesnt mean that she is happy. She's missing her other half mann! If it is happen to me, i know i wont be okay as soon as everybody wants because, my soul are not there my heart are not fine my life are dead and gone. So yeah it doesnt sounds like a pretty life right? So what i will do is just to pray from now and wish that he's be with me as long as i am still alive. Starting from now, i will try to change and try to be better for us. I want him to know that i am really appreciatte with whatever he does for me and i am really proud for having him in my life. Hah! I dont know i dont know but my mind keep thinkin about this lately. Hmmm and i wish, Allah, will let him be with me as long as im still alive. InsyaAllah, and lets together we pray for our late Amirul Aiman, may he is rest in peace and Al-Fatihah for him..

To Yaya,
Baby, you have to be strong, no matter what life must go on. I and your friends and even your family, all are there for you sayang, what you have to do now, try to accept all these. Things happened for a reason sayang, all the hee haw sound will be ending with the haa hee sound so yeah just try and pray to our One and Only Allah, may He accept all of your prayers and put Aiman with the people that He loves. I know, it is still new for you, i hope you are getting better soon. I cant stand to see you sad and even hear that you cry and everything. I know its hard but you've to try, and yeah dont let him sad up there baby. Al-Fatihah

Laugh out loud

2010-06-19T20:55:00.007+08:00

Hey folks, lol! hahahaa How are everyone, i miss here. I miss merepeking hehehehe hmm now, i am in KL, just got back from Malacca, and yeah everybody told me that i dah makin hitam. Pffft just so you know, Malacca was freakin boiling and i have to walk like a miles to get enter to the class, and pffft no point of driving a car or whatever we still have to walk and walk psssttt that is lame =.= and yeah i did burn my skin for free. Sate sate sate lol! No wonder why last day got one indian boy asked for my phone number LOL!

Yesterday night, went out to Midvalley watched Toy Story 3 HAHAHAHAHA with Jajar, aaaa midnight movie again :p sorry mama! Hahahah well, what i can say is, i love this movie, damm cool and awesome and oh oh i met LOTSO just now hahaahahha try watching to Awan Dania at Astro Ria, you will find LOTSO in her room haahahahha ish ishh! I hate LOTSO, fattyy bear, jerk! Euw! eeishh! I played bowling too hahaha while waiting for the time to get into the cinema =p hehehe its been awhile since last i played it with ady :) And im sad now, because i cant eat properly and yes i did that, i have to less the amount of my food due to my mouth affection :( Sakit gila okayy, sebab my langit langit tu bekak sikit and macam alser (pls ignore the spelling) and yes im hungry all the time :S

Last wednesday, i slept over at Qila, Isha, Lily, Eryn and okay Farah's place, at BBP. i had fun with them. they are damm rock! we cooked a spaghettii, we did gossipping, we coloured our nails hahahaha hahaha they made me crazy that day hahahaha especially qila, who is non stop laughing with me ahahahha the next day, we went to classes and went back to KL after that. One funny thing happened when Qila saw one aunty eating watermellon in the van and eh i cant describe it on here la hahahaha badly i tak sempat nak snap her fantastic action hahahahahahahahaa Qila Qila, hahhahaha benci mak! So now, they are my life. my friend. my laughing gasses. Like sumpah i love them a lot :p hee muah!

About clubs, oh oh, i have just registered to Netball club, Hockey club, Pets and animals club and Peer club (which is a charity club) Haha i had fun during the registration days i mean on those three days i think, i and myfriend walked and rounded around for more than 3 times hahaha First club that i am looking for is Netball because, it is under my Sister's soo yeah then i went to Hockey, where so many people told me that, Hockey club was not so active in MMU but i didnt care, i just wanna have fun playing it. I just miss my those time in secondary school, where im being as a captain for my school hockey team :) I miss my team so much! Heeeeeee! Overall, thanks to my friend, Isha for being such a good partner now. She's always with me and yeah we did registered on the same clubs hahaha!

Hmmp i have onother important thing to tell here. I miss my gf, i mean Deqno. Haa we had a fight. When i did readed everything what she sent to that girl. Thats unbelivable because i did put a hight trust to her and yeah when i found that she is cheated, i cried. LOUD! hmmmm then after she explaining everything, im back to be okay. haahha what a lame la kan ahahaha im so sorry deqno, because i didnt ask you first before get mad to you. and yeah now, i realize that no point of hating her. i will let her hating me as much as she wants. it doesnt benifit me anyhow. nak jeling? jeling lah lagi. mother F!

Im better stop now. Bye guys :) Muah!

It's not a joke.

2010-06-14T22:22:00.002+08:00

Okay please dont cry. I know, it touched. I've watched this movie with him last week. This is so amazing, for the first time ever Ady told me that he loves Malaysian Movie, because of this Movie haha If like before, it is a bit hard for me to watched Malay movie with him. He would not be agree to go for Malays Movies. Basicly, i watched a movie that i dont really like and yeah he decided everything hahaha And, if i did mad at him because of malay movie, he would probably said that i am stupid and wasted my money. Grrrrrr and this time, after finished watched that movie, he said yeah he likes it. Hehhehehe LOVE YOU!

For this couple of days kan i always played this music on my baby gegirl( my laptop ) Whenever i am not sleeping i will always listen to this song, I will repeat it again and again, awhh i just love it so much! Don't you? heeeeeeeeeee =pp I admit that lately, i am always had a fight with Ady and mostly we end it up with my tears :( How sad i am so weak. Yes i am. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm and for today's bad news is, okay i wont list it on here. Dont be busybody. Pffftt!

For today, I went to campus met my pet sister, Kak Yaya, awhh it's been an ages didnt meet herr hahaha then i did registered already for clubs! Hockey club, Netball club and pets and animals club. Hihihihihi I cant wait for the activities :) So now, i am back to the old me. I laugh a lot everyday. I smile to everyone. I have a lot of friends now. I love my new friends. All of them are rock! Hehehehe Yeah, i had fun, i mean a lot. And i feel lonely when i am going back home. Like wow i want them to be with me everytime hahahaa At the same time, i did feel lonely when i cant even going out for dinner or whatever, ady wont allowed and if i asked him he will mad at me like crazy so it is better for me to do not asking him at all cause i know i wont get the permission to go out even for dinner. Just dream on it Balkis hahahaha

Just now, when i am in the class, one of my new friend ask me, "What is bubu? Why are you looking for your bubu? And just now, you said that you miss your babywhite. What is babywhite means? Omg i cant get it at all. I dont understand your words."

Hahahaha LOL! Okay let me explain it to all of you so that everyone will undertstand about it. Ishhh

First: My pencil case, i named it as BUBU.
Second: My car, i named it as BABYWHITE, it is because it is a white one la kan.
Third: My laptop, i named it as GEGIRL.

That's all i think hahahaha okay shut now. Pssttt =.= LOL!

I will not always get a chance to update my blog often like i used to before. I have lots of assigments to do, group assigment and revision to do. So yeah, i'll be right back. Goodbye all :)

Tsktsktsk! :'(

2010-06-13T22:15:00.000+08:00

Yeah! It's fucking over now! :'/

Hey world, I love my boyfriend

2010-06-09T23:27:00.004+08:00

Yes, i love my boyfriend. i do love him more than i love myself, but less than i love Allah, mama and Jajar haahahahha

So for today, nothing much happened, went to campus for taking my car sticker that i've odered before i start my class and it took a week to get the blardy sticker which is if i dont stick it on my car then i cant get into the campus and have to park my car outside mmu and later i'll receive another surat cinta from MBMB pffffffft! What the.. okay dont use bad word pls. pffffffffft !!

So yeah, i went to collected the sticker with hidayah today which is my new friend in mmu heehehe this is our frist time meeting and going out together. She's nice and oh soo nice hahaha well today, i got no class, so yeah my lec has just cancelled the class, i stayed at home by doing nothing. Damm bored. Texting with him and had a fight just like usual. Sometime i feel like fighting is just one of our routine as a couple. Lol! Yeah laugh on it please. Pffft! I want to go out, just for fun but erkk i cant he will mad like crazy if he knows! So yeah im sleeping hahahahaha then at night i cooked i ate and i watched twilight new moon whatever shit hahaha then im doing this hahaha how nice my life is right now hahahaha yeahyeah!

Wanna know what? I did knocking my head on the wall. Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Because of you my baby Business Mathematics hahahahaha most of them are just the same with the syllabus that i learned at my secondary school last year but heh i am almost forgotten all of them like hell yeah i did frget it! Awwwhhh i need help :( yes help from those who lovesss mathsss lalalalaalla i think, i have to start from now, recalling everything hahahahha i think im just not more than just like a granny now pffft easy frget everything in just a minute like yes i did frget too many thing, so careless :s

So far, i found that all the lecs in mmu are so damm nice and frindly, they are soo good and very understanding :) They are very professional and funny hahahaha i love all of my classes and im happy with it.. Alhamdulillah...

I got to go.. class at 10am tmrrw. Bye all :)

Afifah tagged me! This is my first time, been tagged hahaha jakun kejab

2010-06-08T22:59:00.002+08:00

Adakah anda rasa anda hot?
Hell not!

Bila kali terakhir anda makan pizza?
Last week, once i balik from mmu makan dengan mama jajar and ady kat midvalley :)

Lagu terakhir yang anda dengar?
Sorry for the stupid thing that i wish i didnt but i do

Apa yang anda buat selain menyelesaikan tag ini?
Facebooking ofcourse hahaa

Selain nama sendiri, anda dipanggil dengan panggilan apa?
Adik, mama i panggil i adik even i ade adik :p

Tag lapan orang lagi.
1. Deqno
2. Fiqa Fiqon
3. Amalina
4. Akma Syazwani
5. Ady
6. Zharif
7. Puteri
8. Justin

Siapakah nombor 1 kepada anda?
She's my bestfriend, my listener my special gf

Katakan sesuatu kepada nombor 5.
I LOVE YOU

Nombor 3 ada hubungan dengan siapa?
Akif from Melaka if im not mistaken la i dont know him at all but what i know they are so close :)

Bagaimana dengan nombor 4?
She's taken by Cokiii which is my bf's gaypartner too hahaahhaah

Pesanan buat nombor 6.
Please please please kamu jangan nakal HAHAHAHAHA

Kata kata cinta buat nombor 2.
Oh cintaku ku rindu nasi lemak dada ayammu HAHAHAHAHAA

Nombor 7 dan nombor 8 ada persamaan?
Haaa absolutely yes hahahaha both is my cat HAHAHAHAHAHAHAA

Berikan 5 yang anda tahu tentang orang yang tag anda.
1. She's nice
2. She's soft
3. She's love addict
4. She loves to crying
5. Her mom is my teacher and she's soo nicee and gorge!

Persamaan antara kambing dan lembu.
Both busuk! Yucks

Perasaan anda buat tag ini?
Hmmp penat la =.= HAHAHAHAHA

Siapa yang i tag tu korang kalau nak buat buat la hahah thanks to afifah for tagged me! :)

Im back, to the where i belong

2010-06-07T10:20:00.004+08:00

Arrived from Seremban at 2 something errr tah not sure, im only take 1 hour go to Malacca :) Pffffffft! Drive consistantly hahaha and oh safely hahaa this time, i brought my Jay-z too hehehee he loves this place cause puteri and justin are not here so he can live peacefully haahaha :p I care about him more than i care about ady tau hahaha sayang you la jay-z hehehehe

Yeahhhhhhhh! Hmmm behind of the YEAH word of mine kan it is actually has another word that no one could beleive but it is damm true, IM SAD. Yeah sad, fucking horrible, fucking everything. Once i texted him saying that i am in malacca back, he's changed 360 degree onwards, oh my God, i cant believe thissss =0 but it is damm true. I cant go anywhere, everything i want to do he wants to know, haishh! Yesterday, we were webcaming for non stop i think, i said i want to cook then he said bring your laptop i want to see whatever you are doing, i scared you might be going out somewhere, like what the... okay fine i did that okay so he did saw me doing everything at home grrrrr! Can you imagine that?

IM CRYING, yes i am. I did cried a river yesterday! FRONT OF HIM THRU THE WEBCAM LA KAN

Im fucking hungry yesterday :( he didnt allowed me to go out for dinner, he asked me to cook by myself, imagine la, im tired that time how to cook la kan hmmm actually i've been plallninng about to go out for dinner with isha then i have to cancelled it due to my love problem grrr i wish he will change ONE DAY, soon! Haihhh i know he loves me but weh this is over love hahahahahaaha

So yeah, im not really havin fun living in malaccca, im not more than just a rabbit who is just living at home everyday and if i only have a class to attend then i will go out from my house. Yeah that is my life now. So nice i know!

Thanks sayang for being over protective hehehehe I love you

Oh no, class going to start at 2pm and i have to go early cause i got thing to do with isha today at the campus, and yeah im still crapping on here, aaaaaa i have to go now, sorry no picture been posted today

KBYE!

That is it.

2010-06-01T21:34:00.011+08:00

1st June, Yes 1st June, You are right and thank you very much! It is our anny's date. OMG, we are officially 1 year and 1 month, heee! I do hope, we will never ever ever ever ever be apart. Congrates to us! Thanks to us! ADY BAKISH hahahahaha I love him for so many reason, and the main reason was because, he is the only guy that willing to be my bf and rather listen to any of my stories, he is the only one that really understand me and the one that never complaint anything about me, because this is me and he loves me bcause of me! Some says that, i am too talkactive and no one can tahan with me, but yeah now i prove you, ady my bf can tahan with me so he is the best :) He's the one! even how nakal he is how gedik i am we are still together, we are still in love, so pls, i do not need any other boy anymore. I do beleive that he dont needs other girl too! Haha please, stop trying to flirt with him. THANKYOUSOMUCH!

Berkilat kilat sudah my face, see la how berpeluh i am!

Hi guys and girls! Hahaha im currently living in Malacca, i am damm busy. I am damm lonely at the same time. I get touched easily so yeah lets stop talking about IT. Well, nowadays, when i am looking at the mirror, i saw a new balkis. I cant see the old one. Hahaha i miss my old. LOL! Talking about here, everybody knows that i am here for studies and yeah in Multimedia University. I went for registration on the 31 May, which is on last Sunday, badly, Ady didnt follow me and my family. That sucks when i think about i have to wait for another 1 week before i can see his eyes, and see his smiles, that sucks. Oh my Allah, I miss him so much now. Like sumpah im crying because of him, because of my mum and everything left in KL. Shall i stop now? kay kay calm.. haahha see, i've told yaa, i get touched easily now.. damm!

So now, im having my orientation week, which is fun for me. I dont know if the others says it is not fun or whatever shit but mine was great. I love my group, Yellow group :) We are really rocking the others and get them annoyed with us. Hahaha who cares right. It is such a wonderful experience that i will never forget heee! And for me, this is such a spirit for me to study hard for my future. All of my seniors are sooo good! They are so caring, loving and yeah i love thier comitment to us like sumpah cannot balas haha What is more important is, they are funnyy! Hahahaha Just like what i've been tellin everyone on Facebook, i have no friend in MMU, if i have pun, she's not my close one. Which is i cant get along with her. Or maybe i just dont really like to be her friend or maybe i feel like she didnt like me or erk i dont know. Yeah, mum was right, the real friend is hard to find. I have to wait. Yeah again im watiing. InsyaAllah, one day :)

So for today, i had fun with my new group, which is gamma and delta's group are combined, then we did palyed this one game, i dotn have any ideas what to called it but yeah we all had fun a lot! Hehehehe and yeah we are the fashion designer for our LOVE MAN hahahaha funny2 =p

I do hope, i'll get better soon. Wish me luck, I need the luck, more luck from you all! And yeah, I miss mama i miss ady, i miss KL thats all from me, BYE!

Fatin And Ady!

2010-05-21T16:55:00.007+08:00

Pfffftttt, one week left OMG OMG I can't waittt anymore hahaha at the same time i rasa berat hati nak pergi =c Im gonna miss you ADYZHARIFARASHID!!!! Hmm i hope, everything gonna be alright. Please, AMIN :)

Today, at 10 something, off to IKEA had a breakfast with him. Before he's off to his work. Hihihihi so surprise when finally we went out early in the morning hahaha good morning malaysia hahahah

U smile I smile =p Currently listening to Justin Bieber's song, U smile :) hahaha

2 days ago, i met Fatin, my schoolmate hihihii she can drive a car now just like me and we were talking for hour and a half for non-stop i think haahha and laughing like a jerk at Mahbub Bangsar. I had fun with her and ady, thanks guys, you both made my day! I am also gonna miss her cause she has been selected and been offered a diploma in art and desgin at UiTM alor gajah Malacca yeyyyyyyyyy! Hahahaa and babe, thanks for paid the bill hahahaha!

After been talked for sooo long, we decided to go to Cat Whisker Boutique, Fatin wants to buy a shoes for her cousin's wedding. Once i reach there, i went crazy, omg omg banyakknyaa baju yang i sukaaaaa!!! Geram laaa!! After a few minutes, Fatin seems unhappy cause there's no shoes that can steal her eyes hahaha so we went back homee =] Thanks Fatin for spending your time with meee :p Muahh!

Stop ejek i! Grr

Based on the pictures above, all can know that we are sweating like hell hahaha like a fat pig too! We are actually planning about to go for work out but i cancelled it due the bad weather. So, we decided to go to Taman Tasik Perdanaaaa baybayy! Played a Badminton game, cause now is Thomas Cup Fever hahaha but too bad, Malaysia, KALAH okay jangan gelak. I hope our Badminton Team can improve and show to the world that Malaysia, can be the winner, Maybe, kali ni bukan rezeki kita it's okay guys, dont give up! I love Malaysia :) and proud to be a Malaysian!

I harap i boleh kurangkan lemak =p Cause everytime i am running, my belly is shaking hahaha ashamed on me!

Look at herrrr, so cuteeee aaaaaaa

I penat buat kajian kat Internet semua okay, Pasal keburukan MMU and kebaikan MMU so, please read this,

KUALA LUMPUR, May 15 (Bernama) -- Multimedia University (MMU), Malaysia's first private university and a subsidiary of Telekom Malaysia Bhd (TM), has added another accolade to its list of honours this year by making it into the list of top 200 Asian universities.

MMU is ranked number 171 under the QS.com Asian Universities Rankings 2009, which is the first regional ranking published by the QS Quacquarelli Symonds Ltd, the compilers of the Times Higher Education.

This year, 6 Malaysian universities made it into the regional list, with MMU being the only Malaysian private university in the top 200 in the ranking. The other 5 universities were Malaysia’s public universities; Universiti Malaya, Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia, Universiti Sains Malaysia, Universiti Teknologi Malaysia and Universiti Putra Malaysia.

Clear now? And badly, i heard that, 2010 I mean this year la kan, MMU are no longer there and okay at least, MMU pernah been listed kan so yeah, i know my decision was the right one! Even University Malaya pun jatuh ranking tahun ni. So yeah, just shut your mouth now now now. Stop telling me that i am better go for UiTM okay clear? THANKSBYE!

Ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh lupa nak bagitahu, i ade rabbit sekarang ni.. Jay-z is the name hehehehe he will be my new partner. Yeyyy and thanks to you Ady i'll bring him to malacca later to stay with me. Heee and okay, i've improved a lot on drive a manual car. Just laugh out loud bitch! Bye!! heeeeeee =p

Balkis sangat bosan

2010-05-13T14:11:00.010+08:00

Hello everyoneee =p aaaa im bored! like so effin bosan sekarang ni. Everybody was busy talking about where to further studies and everything and yes i already decided where to go :) At first i was really confused about UiTM or Multimedia University, then when i did some research and did the survey to those who have been there before i realize that. that's my choice! c=

Yes, MMU. Hmmp i hate being there, if i can i dont wanna go there, but when i think about the location near my hoemtown and everything it makes me feel okay and yes i go for study so yeahh just go! UiTM offered me Diploma in Information Management course where i think that i dont really like it. At first i was really intend to go for it but when i think about the location at Kedah I was sooooo scared hahaha and mama was like in dilemma, at first she's agreed if i go for UiTM in Kedah, then when she did told to one of my aunties, she told me to do not going for it ahaha and she saidd, just go for mmu it's better. I am sooo not sure about my decision. But yeah, many people told me to choose my choosen course not thinking about the place or whatever. Study what i think i can do it and what i think i will like it. So yeah.. I'll go for MMU :)

Hehehe andd i only have a fews of week before im off to mmu.. i dont wanna waste my time anymore i will use it to meet my baby all the timee :DDDD heheheh im so gonna miss himmm :(( andd i know he will worry like fucking much about guys in mmu hahahaha baby, dont worryy.. i wont cheatt okayy heeee

at the same time, he's worry about my new car hahahaha mama has just gave me a new car for me to use for study later at mmu. so he was worry if i will use it for going out with other boy for enjoy or going to the club haah funny funny dont worry la sayang.. i only use it for going to the class and going to kl or seremban ok?even club also i tak pernah pergi ishhh! and yes, a zillionth thank you to my mum =]]] i love you maaa, this is suuch unbeleivable kottt haahahaha u gave me a car like omg this is my dream hahahahaha mwah mwah loveyousomuch!

ohh yeaaaa, even im so happy for my baby new car, i still got a problem with it.. it was a manual car.. mama told me that the sales man told her if mama still wants an auto one she have to wait for another month how la kan cause i hav to go to mmu on this end of month.. and mama just said okay to him grrrrrrr padahal i can use her car while waiting for the new car kan hmmmp :(( and derrr how la?!! kalau bukit i bet i failed and okay i boleh mati nanti :{ how how how laaa i cant stop thinking about thatt.. oh God help me.. make it easyy.. AMIN whatever it is, im so thankful, Alhamdulillah, thanks Allah for it :) heee

Oh and about mother's day's celebration, nothing much about that. Hahaha and okay laugh out loud please for the cake above hahahahahahahaha two days before mother's day jajar had called his abah, she's asking to buy a cake for mother's day then jajar told him to buy a very huge cake and please buy it from secret recipe thennn when the day has come i mean on the saturday, jengjeng jeng his abah beli kat kedai cake mana2 tah ahahahahahahha well till now, no one touch the cake hahahahaha and mama was just smile and says thank you hahahaha so funny and yeahh MY MOTHER IS MY EVERYTHING TO ME :) MAMA, YOU ARE SO SEPCIAL AND NO ONE CAN BEAT YOU =P

I like this girl, she's nice to all and she's funny too! :)

Oh yes, i went to malacca last a few of days for some reason hahaha

This liltle boy comel kan? and he's actually trying and planning about how to tarik my mole out hahaha nakal betul!

Action! =p hahahaa

Ilove you man :)

I think, i look pretty in this picture with that scarft hahaha so perasan!

He's the 1st person that drove my new car. And not me!

Cakk! Fatty ;p

Justin says " Why are they so stupid, dont they see me here waiting for so long, im so exhausted and please man, you are so annoying (ady) oh God i am so hungry" hhahaha justin looks tired while waiting for his turn hahahaha

And this annoying boy is mine hahaha

my baby Justin

Currently, my butt is sticked at home. Im not going out anywhere. Like so effin skema hahahaha okay la i've nothing to write anymore. Till then. Bye you all =s

Yes, today is May 1st 2010

2010-05-01T15:13:00.004+08:00

Hello everyone. Heee! i gotta admit that i've been not updated my blog since so long kan hahaha so yeah here i am come back on here again starting merepeking hehehehehe

May 1st 2010 :) the date that i've been waiting for so long and at last i and him are officially 1 year been together and yeah, so speechless =.=' and unlucky for me, the date was nothing like i expected it to be. Not that i knew what to expect but i did odd the imaginary scenario in my head, ranging from dreadful to fantastic but erk.. the day has nothing to be remembered! The real thing was somehow better and worse, all at once. So? Yeah, i gotta admit that today was awful.

Yesterday, i went to Seven Eleven, just to reload my credit, for calling him that night.

12pm, he sent me a msg, he gave me a wonderful words. After a few minutes, he sent me another msg, he told me that once he reach his home, he wants to go for sleep, so it means, that he dont wanna text or call me that night. See, how special my 1st annyvesary :) it's okay. I know, i have to understand his situation, well, why dont he did the same thing too? Why cant he stays for a liltle time for me? May 1st like nothing to him. Hmmmp

Now, im writing here, half numb with dissappointment and half wanting to burts into hysterical laughter. Cause, i cant bear it anymore =( Still, I love him.

Forget about that, i have to move on. It's like a very small matter for you kan? Yes i know. So yeah, today i woke up just like usual, had my breakfast, went for bath, and get ready for my mum's friend's ceremony at Pee Jay. Had my free lunch. hehehhee met a few of mama's old friend. And one of them is already booked me to be his daughter in law hahahahaha so funny. Then everybody was like asking me where i will continue my studies and everything. One of the aunties, told to mama that her son will further his studies in overseas. Show off =.=' !! Like i care? And mama was like, eh good la, my daughter loves m'sia la for your information ahahhahaha funny =p I and mama heading home at 2 pm somehting cause at 3pm mama has to go to work. Grrr so yeah i went back home without Jajar, cause Jajar is following his abah..

See, how boring i am today. Haihh

And yes, my wish to go to genting still pending. ady is busy working. hmmmp

I WANT TO GO TO GENTING ASAP BEFORE I OFF TO MALACCA :((((( PLEASE LA FAHAM!! OH GOD PLEASE! MAKE IT REAL FOR ME.

Eh, before i lupa, i want to tell everyone here that now i have a new kitten. Justin is the name. Hahaha yeah Justin Bieber =p It's so cute okay hihihihii and yes i did went to UPM just like what Isha has told to me before, i did brought my two kitten to the UPM animal clinic to get the vaccin. Then the doc said my two kitten are so clean and looked healthy heeeeee Thanks Doc!

Meowwwwwwwwwwwwww~

Help me! Help me!

Okay la i have to go now. I want to feed my two babies. Hahaha okay bye you all. Wait for my next post okay? MwaMwa

Today was awesome !! :D

2010-04-22T23:26:00.009+08:00

Hi All!

What's up everyone? I hope that everyone is doing fine Hehehehe =p Okay lets smile lets laugh hahahaha for you information, I super over love today. I feel happy and light with anticipation. Hoping for him to come and see me as soon as he can :) And today already has a totally different atmoshphere from yesterday. Everything likes giving me a signal to smile ;p hekhek! And yes, today was really awesome too! I loveeeeeee Todayyyyyyyyyyy!! =p I dont wanna story about anything else, it is all about him and swear I love him. Make it simple.

1) He came and made a surprised when he came to my house without telling me 1st
2) He gave me a very cute teddy bear (my fav)
3) He did scared me when he did knocked my house door like a thief :s

Enufsaid, im so happy. Hehehehehe Thanks God for giving me a very great boyfriend :D

Hi Hi Hi, my babyy

Hahahaha end of it. One month left before I go to mmu :( dont be sad bakish. be thufff!!! I wont changed sayang please dont worry about that Yes I wont cheat!!

My Justin Bieber :)

I love Justin Bieber's video clip =p All of it are so amazing You are so talented JB!!

JB, i Love you JB! Maybe it is just a dream, but i dont care, i really love you JB! I will always do =p Im your big fan. Keep it up a good work JB! LOVEYOU JB!! LOVE YOU!!! Everytime i sing your song i feel good everytime i look at your picture i smile. Oh God, im in love with you.. Yes You JB!!!

Enuf enuf, crap! BYE ALL!! i love jb! for sho! =p

1 year

2010-04-19T08:16:00.001+08:00

It has been almost a year im taken by him.

I try to smile but my mouth is suddenly dry. I cant believe how nervous i feel. I dont know why should i feel nervous? About my 1st year annyvesary? But it is the truth. This is worse than school report. Really! *sighs I have a horrible feeling, i might burst into tears any moment. And now, my adrenaline is pumping through my body. Im so wound up and i barely know what i am supposed to do :s I love him and to be honest, im scared to lose him :( He's like my everything. I can't even think how i will be without him in this world. I know, I should stop now, it's so scary. Positive thinking please. Stop it.

The truth is, i am so enthused. Hahahaha I had no idea it would be so nice!!

Forget about it, no ones care! haha well i've been quite busy now, busy with my family. Yesterday, paksu came to my house, talking about his direct selling business hhaaha On the night maksu came, for no reason hahaha sometimes, i feel like my house is like a service caunter, or maybe a zoo? hahaha Now, this morning my house are quite apart from any heehaw sound. It's as though after the hubbub of yesterday, everyone's a bit exhausted. In fact, as i woke up this morning, Jajar gaves me an enormous yawn and okay wangi gila bau mulut kau !! Grrrrr!

I am now, been so dull with my life. I spent more time sitting alone and thinking nothing. It's amazing, what a strange person i am nowadays. No more laughing matter, no more jokes come out from my mouth. I mean for my friends. I am busy entertain my family and him. No friend no war. Hahaha It's like i've been transformed. I am a new Balkis. What i've learned is if you cant even makes your loved one happy then what is life all about? Right? For these 3-4 days, i and ady are always had a fight. I always told him that i wanna go out. Have some drinks with my friends, but he kept angry and told me to do not going out to meet my friends. But when i think back about what has my friends did for me, i smile and calm. There's nothing :) So dont wasted your time for them. Live your life Bakish.

Yes, im strong enuf now. Been waiting soo long for them to call or text me but okay, nothing. So, pleaseeeeeee. Dont talk about them...

To make it simple and nice, let just off to the list of my top of my head :)

1) So rindu dekat Ady and excited for our 1st year anny!
2) Excited, waiting for my car =p a brand new one. Local car pun local car la hahaha Alhamdulillah :)
3) Will get a new brand one laptop too! =p
4) Will be leaving KL soon =(
5) Will be missing my one and only robot, AdyZharif so much!!
6) Planning about to go to genting as soon as possible :(

That's all from me. Im waiting for a miracles to come and knock my heart this becoming 1st Maay :) Till then. Bye y'llzz! =p

abc lu fikir sendiri ahaa

2010-04-11T15:53:00.008+08:00

Hi all! Balkis in the house hahaha

Okay let me update you'll about myself goin so far..

1st: im busy on pampering and buying so many stuff for my U is life :s
2nd: im quite bored with my life, since ady started working :s
3rd: lalalala sangat bosan

Get it? ahahhaa sooooo i feel like there's nothing to be story. seriously! So bored! But it's okay life must go on. Okay, so for today, i had fun with my loversss! Heeee! Im supposed going to seremban today but then mama has just cancelled it. Due to her on call works! So im fine with that. Stayed at home eating and laughing ahahahaa

My new fav meal! HAHAHAHA
Cheeeeeeeese, wei say cheese la, i cant see your teeth hahaha
My curry laksa :p

Yesterday night, went to the curve, planning to meet deqno but then it turned to be sucks when ady told me that he's tired and sleepy. he wants to go back! so we have to be hurry. By the time i've finished my curry laksa, my entire body is tense with misery. This night is a disaster. a complete disaster :s i've made every effort possible to chat, and joke and be funny but ady still been all broody and distracted and to be honest i might as well no to be there! grrr i feel like crying and dissappointment. we were getting on so well, what went wrong? just because i asked you to have a walk first before we go for dinner? or you are just totally not in the mood to layan i?!?! whatever, we went okay after half an hour kott! lama okay! =s hmmmmm i love you by the way.. eh lupa nak bgtau, at last, i jumpa deqno juga, she was on the phone that time, she walked near by my table, then i shouted her name.. we met but just a few minutes :S what lame!

On my way to fetch Ady =p

Ohhhhhhh okay lupa nak cerita, i went for medical checkup already.. ahaha this is totally funny

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

lets laugh!!!

Seriously, kelakar nak mati hahahaa 1st, when i reached Pantai Medical, i hav to go to forth floor, meet my Dr.. later when i was on the checkup process, i was 100% is clumsy hahaha i went very gelojoh lepas the dr asked me to take out my shirt i was like, are you serious? hahhaa actually, if we do the checkup kan no need to take out shirt pun but since i ade skin problem yg serious dr tu suruh i bukak so she can see very clear.. hahaa after that i have to go for urine test.. this one also very funny, when the nurse gave me the small bottle to me, i turned to be so kelam kabut. it is because, before i go for the urine test, i've just urinated that time and okay imagine, what should i do?! hahaha i just go and act like there's nothing.. so i headed to the toilet. trying to urineeee but the i faileddd! :( and shit, i dont bring my water bottle so how? then by not thinking anything, i terus minum air paip HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA banyak pulak tu haaha sooo annoying hahaha =p i know i know.

After settled with that i went for X-Ray! Waited for 15 minutes something, then the dr called my name, i went to the room. he asked me to take out my shirt and wear the ugly and strange dress. so i go into the X-ray room. then he did the x-ray process, after a few minutes, he asked me, 'aik?you are wearing a bra?you did not take it out?" and i was like so vibrated and i said "ya.. do i have to?sorry i dont know.." then he laugh and said okay we did it again and pls take it out, dont worry i wont do anything towards you.." aahhaaha so funnyyyyy...

Hehehehehe comel kan my hamster? lama i tak cerita pasal dia.. since puteri ade.. i know i know! well, dia okay je now. makin gemokz! ehehee

psssssssssstttttttt! soorryyy for my very boring entry for todayyyyyyyyy. okayyyy wait for my next post okay? byebye!

I'm in love

2010-04-07T08:43:00.010+08:00

Hi hoi hey hello!
I, Balkis, am in love.

Yes, i mean it. Hahaha im so inlove.. and okay any problem?

Ady Zharif is mine! He knows all the crappy, embarrasing bits about me that i normally try to hide from any boy for as long as possible and yes.. he loves me anyway.. so he didnt exactly say he loved me but he said something even better. i still keep rolling it blissfully around my head. For the first time ever in my entire life i'm totally in love one hundred percent in love! Whenever Puteri comes and bites my finger, i will always thinking about you sayang...

Seeeee, Puteri jeles dengan my hamster hahahah

And this gedik girl, so annoying hahaha

Last week, I went to Malacca. Nothing much happen, everything goes fine. I met Deqno, at last! After almost a year I didnt meeting her. I miss her and okay I love her like so crazy okayy! We had fun, eating together at one of Abg Boy's fav restaurant, Nasi Padang somewhere in Dataran Pahlawan, Thanks to him cause paying everything hahaha! And okay I had fun fullstop!

As i arrived home, i glowing all over. it's like a light bulb has switched on inside me. Deqno, knows what im talking about. Whatever it is, I know, he's now happy with her. Congrates to her! :) all this being mysterious and aloof is complete rubbish. i have to stop now. okay stop!

The driver :p

While waiting for mama and Jajar

Hahahah seeeeeee, at last, dapat dah dia bra. Macam bodoh kecil kecil lagi nak pakai bra dah. Adoiiiii! Even your nipple pun belum nampak la HAHAHAHAHA

WEBCAMING AT HOME HAHA VAINN!

I LOVE YOU MUAH MUAH MUAH

I want to change my behaviour.
I want to be a better girl for Ady.
I want to leave and forget about the past.
I want to love my boyfriend deeply.
I want to be his forever girl.
I want to make him happy.
I want to be in his love world!!

I WANT TO LOVE HIM FOREVER!!

11 month mannnnnnnn!

2010-04-01T17:46:00.002+08:00

Yesterday,

Tiktoktiktok, okay it's 12pm, i shud hav my bed, sleeping cause i have to wake up early on the next day. I went to my bed and had my sleeping beauty process after a few minutes, the next morning, i wokeup, first thing that i looking for is my cellphone, i look at the screen, i saw "1 massage, 2 miss call" Okay fine, it must be Ady so i readed, and i was so shock when i read, he said that he wants to leave me and he asked me to do not contact him again, it means breakup!

So i asked myself, What happened? Did i do something wrong? Did i break some rule i wasnt even aware of? One minute everything's great. The next is disaster. It dosent make any sense. My mind is running back and forth, trying to work it out, trying to pinpoint the exact moment when things started going wrong, when he said that im cheated on him! I dont beleive it! Yeahhhhhh! WTF is that? Okay calm, i did says sorry to him if i did anything wrong but then he kept angry with me. So i was like what the hell wrong la kan, after 4 hours something, he told me that, APRIL FOOL and okay shit you la! FUCKYOUMAN!!! hahahaa I was really shock and okay aghast at time! :S blank blank, he did fool around me again? fuck man! fuck! AHAHAHAHA

After being okay with him back, i went sleeping again AHAHAHAHAH all of sudden, i wokeup, i can see the rain is beating down even harder, thundering on the roof and okay it's so so scary. i just cant sleep. okay i try to sink into it again. okay again im sleeping... then, suddenly, TUT*TUT*TUT*TUT* okay he texted me, "Syg" I replied to him "I nak tido" then he replied "nak tidur ke merayau" wtf la dont bother im sleeping la woi hahahaa and again i cant sleep grr and now im onlining and okay im now wasting my time on wrtiing here HAHAHAA

Today is my 11th month annyvesary :) Happy 11th month annyvesary sayang, i do love you okay baby! MwaMwa! Thanks for the annyvesary gift (april fool drama) grrr! He's sooooo naughty! Grrr! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ADY ZHARIF :)

Baby-sitter =p

2010-03-30T11:55:00.007+08:00

Pity him, alololo, dia jatuh masa tunggu i and my mother ambil dia grrr :(

Can you see that? Okay okay he's not my lil bro he's not my niece he's not my cousin but he's my mum's friend's son :) His mum got an emergency so he has to stays with my family at my place. His dad is not well, he has been living at the hospital for a few days due to his high blood pressure disease. I had so much fun with Iman. He's sooooooooooo nice and okay he's a good boy! I lololove him!! Very muchhhhhhhhhhhh! Iman Iman Iman you make me crazyy!

Last saturday, i balik seremban, had fun went off to Jusco Seremban 2, where is near my home in Bukit Chedang, had lunch at kenny rogers, heeeee so yummyyyyy! Walk around for almost an hour, headed home after that and sleepover for 1 night. Okay that's my routine on my weekend! So boredddddd! =.= for now, im still not working even i've searching but im still not start working and i dot feel like i want. mama not allowed. you just can dream bakish hahahahaha im now busy on buying so many stuff to go to Malacca later. the hysterical place hahahahaha

Im currently not having any problem yet. Happy living with my lovers around me. Glad that world are still alive and okay Puteri are getting older! Alhamdulillah Yeyyyy! =p That's all from me kot. Nothing to story anymore, im so dull and i know :p just wwait for my another entry okay? Mwahx! Bye all!

Scream with frustration

2010-03-26T01:48:00.006+08:00

Im still trying to stand perfectly but i cant :( i failed! I hate me! I cant cope with this. Im too dazed to think of anything other than i must let it be! Now! Nothing can pierce my happiness. NOTHING! I do my work every day on a cloud, send and fetch Jajar later waft home again, sit my all day smiling at the screen while viewing his page. Im almost tempted to text or call him straightaway and tell him how jelous i am but errrrr i wont because i know it wont work. Im trying to just keeping my head down and not mentioning his name again at all! Enuf enuf!

So today, my day are just okay. Not so bored not so happy just average hahahaa the atmosphere has disintegrated, this is awful, im not sure either today will be raining or warming or whatever. Decided not to go anywhere but at last i cant stay at home and yes i did went out! At the same time, mama asked me to send Jajar to her Tuition Cntre, Enopi! Hahahahahha While waiting for Jajar to finish her class, im off to Pizza Milano Bangsar, had my fav meal, Pastaaaaaa! =.= while i was eating with such a zeal, i saw Ama with her family, she came to me, we talked for a few minutes, later she off to Mahbub with her family. Haahah what a lame day, im eating alone and okay its soooooooooooo lameeeeee!

Actually, i did texted him and okay there is no reply and i feel a twinge of dissappoinment. I wanted someone to talk to i wanted someone to impress with my brilliant new theory of life. Im so wrong, boy and girl are not enemies, boy and girl are soul mates! but i think he's now is my enemy! so what? Im trying to feel more positive. stop talking about thissss bakishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! =|

Heehehehehehehehehheheehhehe

Ady now is working. So he is busy. So please dont ask me with those stupid question "tak keluar dengan ady?" like okay i'll get mad like crazy. He has no off day. So it means no day no time FOR ME! like wtf wtf wtf !! I know, i have to be calm. He did for me. For us! For our 1 year annyvesary aaaha Love you! :) I want to see his huge smile :( please please! Since Ady is busy working, i have a new sms partner, her name is Deqno, i mean this is her glamour name among her family, her real name is Yusnoridayu something, and okay im not sure ahahahaha she's the kind of understanding one. She is my recorder tau, she's listen and be my great adviser, i love her. She means a lot to me :D

Deqno, if you are reading this, take note, that im really love you okay!

In peace in another 2 months more, i'll be a part of hill-billy group! Haaahaha i'll be trapped at the most hysterical place, Malacca! :S no car, no fun, no Ady =[ lalalalalala what to do what to do.
I DONT CARE!

I hope, everything will be great! And sayang, im gonna miss youuuuuuuu x)

A to the D to the Y

2010-03-19T18:42:00.009+08:00

Yaa, Its Ady and I miss him badly. i miss to see his vulnerable face when i mad at him. hahaha and i know that later he'll give me a liltte wince hahaha =p i admit that we had fight almost everyday :S that was my own dumb, stupid fault and okay so what?! sometimes, when we were fighthing, my brain actually is trying to slot all the pieces together trying to work it all out but it just fail and i did the failed :( ahh i know im bad. ego! *cheeks are getting warmer. calmmmm

Forget about that. im trying to not fighting with you actually but you know, iblis is hasuting me hahahahha sorryyy. miss you miss you xoxoxxo!

Seeeee here? hahaha orang kuat nii. no one can beat them okay. try lah hahahaa
The pink one : pegang melaka
The brown one: pegang rembau
The red one: pegang seremban
hahahahaa

Fatty =[

Mss Zoe, my teacher in British Council

My classmate

Euwww hahah bapak gemok!

Lunch set, while waiting Ady :s

Okay lets start our merepeking season hahahaa. Last wednesday, i got class just like usual, in British Council, so i decided to meet Ady 1st before im off to class kan. so i went there at about 2 even my class start at 5.45pm hhaaha once i reach klcc i called him, i said that i already there then he was freakily angry he said bad stuff to me he's really mad at me like a monster okay hahahhaha i felt like i want to scuff my toe awkwardly on the floor, feeling a lil bit shamefaced =.= durrrrrrrrr pls syg dont mad i was just want to make a surprise to you, didnt expect that you could mad at me like that. hmmmmp i know, he's worry about me. okay fine im sorry lalaalalalala then i said i love him and everything all of sudden i felt a sudden colour coming to my cheeks and awkwardly clear my throat, yes right, he said he loves me too. yeay! hahaha i had lunch with him, bolongonies spaghetti ;p yummy! then he send me to britihs council. thnx =p he really made my day okay mwah!

So for today, i had fun with my another an awesome girl, Fiqa, known as Fiqon hahahahha she's my old friend actually, she's now really skinny okay, and i thought that she's sick :( she's changed a lottttttttttttt! i miss her okay, really. we've been known each other since year2007 kottt ;p hihihihi its funny if i think back what i did on those year. hahahaha poser year! wakakkaka

I've made a decision that i'll just agree with my mum's decision to just study in MMU later. like even i dont intend to study there but this is the only way for me to prove to mama that i can be her fav kid=p yeahhh! i love you ma, i'll just agree with whatever you decides for me. Promise! and okay no taylors or any other place. stop. fullstop bye

:)

2010-03-17T01:50:00.000+08:00

Open Your Eyes
Look around yourselves
Can't you see this wonder
Spreaded infront of you
The clouds floating by
The skies are clear and blue
Planets in the orbits
The moon and the sun
Such perfect harmony

Let's start question in ourselves
Isn't this proof enough for us
Or are we so blind
To push it all aside..
No..

We just have to
Open our eyes, our hearts, and minds
If we just look bright to see the signs
We can't keep hiding from the truth
Let it take us by surprise
Take us in the best way
(Allah..)
Guide us every single day..
(Allah..)
Keep us close to You
Until the end of time..

Look inside yourselves
Such a perfect order
Hiding in yourselves
Running in your veins
What about anger love and pain
And all the things you're feeling
Can you touch them with your hand?
So are they really there?

Lets start question in ourselves
Isn't this proof enough for us?
Or are we so blind
To push it all aside..?
No..

We just have to
Open our eyes, our hearts, and minds
If we just look bright to see the signs
We can't keep hiding from the truth
Let it take us by surprise
Take us in the best way
(Allah..)
Guide us every single day..
(Allah..)
Keep us close to You
Until the end of time..

When a baby's born
So helpless and weak
And you're watching him growing..
So why deny
Whats in front of your eyes
The biggest miracle of life..

We just have to
Open our eyes, our hearts, and minds
If we just look quiet we'll see the signs
We can't keep hiding from the truth
Let it take us by surprise
Take us in the best way
(Allah..)
Guide us every single day..
(Allah..)
Keep us close to You
Until the end of time..

Open your eyes and hearts and minds
If you just look bright to see the signs
We can't keep hiding from the truth
Let it take us by surprise
Take us in the best way
(Allah..)
Guide us every single day..
(Allah..)
Keep us close to You
Until the end of time..

Allah..
You created everything
We belong to You
Ya Robb we raise our hands
Forever we thank You..
الحمد الله
Alhamdulillah..

Malacca Trip

2010-03-13T17:48:00.005+08:00

Hello! Im back hahaha! I just got back home from Malacca. I went there with my relatives and family. For pertunangan Abang Boy and his future wife yang very pretty tauu! ;p well, they seemed like such a great couple okay. Pfffffft! And of course not to me and Ady, we're actually stuck it out and acted being the perfect couple for long enough, as we were figthing everyday hahahahaa! whatever la kan!

Mama and Mss Gedix!

Cinta, yes her name is Cinta :)

Before arriving

So yeah, we went there by car. No more bus, since Malacca is near with KL/N9. We headed to Bukit Katil Malacca. Searching the house and we reached at the lunch time :) Ahaaaaaa! So we had our meals. Damm sodapp!! Asam pedas bhaiiiiiii! hahahahaha after dealing and discuss everything, after 6 months maybe they will get married. hihihi cant wait! The trip was awesome :D Really! Im happy seeing mama and jajar laughing all the time actually aaahahahahahaa

For now, im glad, because everything clear now, my spm result, my life and love life.. really.. im very thankful to God for giving me the happiness.. :) Thank God! Alhamdulillah! I miss Ady :( Really! =[[[ he's now working. So, we never been meeting like we used to before. I miss to see his face, smell his cap :( waaaaaaaa!! :'((

I miss you Ady. really miss you :( jom pergi mandi manda lagi hahahahaha yea i miss that :')

Last night, i and mama went out for meeting her friend, soemwhere in Cheras, This is completely sucks, Its middle of the night.. i should be at home, bed, sleeping and instead im walking down the street with my mum and her friend, wondering what on earth we're going to say to one another hahahaa it's quite boring, when jajar's not around. but nevermind, im glad that she's living with my uncle now hahahahaha Somewhere in my body a tiny pulse starts beating, which must be because of the weirdness of the situation. oh yea, finally, i realize that i just missed one monkey haahahaha its ok its ok nevermind.

For now, im busy planning about my next step for my studies.. thanks mama and aunty for fixing everything for me.. :) goodbye all

British Council

2010-03-05T16:31:00.007+08:00

Hii..
For all information, Next week, will be the last day of my class in British Council. Will be continue on the next term, next month maybe.. for the next level.. well, still, im gonna miss you B.C :)
Here are some pictures that have been taken by Kai wei..in B.C enjoy yeaa!

My classroom, number 14 :)

I have this photo from Kai Wei's blog. Heee!

Yes, im gonna miss the place that i used to play so much games hihihihi well, its okay, im planninh to continue my level later. just wait yaa! hahaha

In the toilet, at British council

Im now, have nothing to do. i want to baked again!! grrrrr Ady, come home!! fastt! hahahaha

Puteri Bukit Chedang

2010-03-01T18:44:00.006+08:00

Hi y'll!

Today is my 10 months annyversary day! hahaha! baru 10 months? what lame.

Sayang, terima kasih for everything okay. Im speechless! Dont know what to say. No word cud describe my feeling. Just want you to know that im really love and care about you okay. mwahxxxx! =p

Forget about it. Look at the picture. Heee the kitten is belong to me. Puteriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii! Im now happy with Puteri and Ady..

Okay la just so you know, i am now not in a very good condition..

SPM RESULT......

BYEEEEEEEEE ALLLLLL

March 11, 2010

2010-02-27T19:18:00.003+08:00

Yes, the date, of SPM result.

Are you ready to face it? Ahaaaaaa

I feel a new consternation, sweeping all thoughts of trimming from my head. Goshhh, im scareddddd ! Automatically, im change. Mom call me as a demure girl now. I dont know. I have no mood at all to talk or even to be just like the old me. Hmmmmp im worried. Very~

Okay, just calm down, i tell myself for the zillionth time. ishhhhhhh! i just cant imagine.. hmmph

So just so you know, my life now are just goin fine. Nothin interesting in it. And okay im dull. fullstop. Im not in a good mood now. till then. bye-bye

Menghitung hari,~

2010-02-23T20:43:00.016+08:00

Ye... saya sedang menghitung hari, hari keluarnya keputusan spm nanti.

Im really scared right now. I've been thinking about it since the exam is over actually and the day is coming so soon!! ahhhhhhhhhhhh i cant even concentrate for anything else. i beleive that God deal with fair and everything happen has a reason, so now what i can do is just to pray. pray may my result will make my mom proud with me and change my life. InsyaAllah =.= i do hope too that all my friends will be happy with their result soon.

Hmmmp but i felt a familiar pang as i think about them. i dont know, but its hurt. Just now, when i was standing side by side by the stove, i've been thinking about them and okay i admit that i miss them. a lotttttt! but as i sit on the chair, i resolve that everything will be okay if im not thinking about them. i know it will be better, better for me :)

I cant imagine, how i'll be on the result day. Crying? Laughing? Shouting? Ahhh bakishhhhhhhhh stop thinking about it. Okay, fine. even ady has made a lot of jokes to me today, im still cant even accept that spm result will be coming out soon. perhaps, on next week?

ahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I dont know i dont know. i cant eat, i cant go for bath. i cant laugh, i cant do everythingggggggggggggggggggggggggg!!!!!!!!
Sabar sabar. Chill, chill!

I think im better talking about something else. i pissed myself off! i know!! derr!

Okay, now, im in KL but mama still in seremban. She's still busy on tidy and fix everything in seremban. i have to return KL because Jajar had to go to school. Everything went fine. What have been planning goes fine. Kedah trip was just okay. i had to sacrifice myself to walked with the 37 ' temperature. imagine, how am i that time. as everybody know, perlis is the hottest place in M'sia and yes i did went there with my family. hahaha what lame. My brother already married now. and he's absolutely not single hahaha but who cares?

Mama dia lawa, dia mesti la lawa hahaha *kak shu and her daughter.

Vain! Hahaha

Aikk! Tarik lidah kang hahaha

Ishhhhhhhh geram betul ahhh !!

I went to kedah on sunday, from seremban at about 10 am and reached, at Changloon, Kedah at about 7.30 pm and imagine, how stress my butt la kan. hahaha! 9 hours mannnnnnnn! we're going by bus. since there are too many people that wants to follow for the akad nikah ceremony. mama rent a bus. what to do, i went there by bus. i dont want to story too much about the trip because i dont really enjoy the trip, its really pissed me off when i felt uncomfortable with the hot weather, no friend to talk and okay im exhausted! i returned seremban on the next day. before that, i went to padang besar, perlis (the hottest place) there's nothing to buy actually, nothing special i think and im wondering why people busy and wants to go there =S

My auntyy, Cik Hanimm :p

The unexpected thing is i met Epul. hahaha wtf! in padang besar pulak tu. he said that he went there because, there was his village. hahaha okay then at least i laughed for a minutes. hahaha! its really bored actually, what can i do? rubbing my nose. hahahaha!

Last saturday, i mean Febuary 20, my brother's wedding ceremony in seremban, that was awesome. it goes great. just i and my relatives are really exhausted. i feel a breathless mixture of outrage and exhilaration. hahaha well, thanks to everybody who has helped me and mama a lot on making the ceremony goes great! i'd to say thank you to those who are coming ;p Thank God, at last, it goes fine. after a month of preparation. hahaha!

See, time goes very quick, as quick as lightning. haha i know its not funny, dont force yourself to laugh hahaha but never mind, im not going to stress about it, i mean spm result. grrr i cant beleive how nervous i am about this. my head jerks up and i felt a nervous twinge! haishh. enufffff! lets tawakal and let Allah deal with it. hmmp what we have to do now is just pray. insyaAllah everything will be great!

Eh, lupa nak mention, Thanks to Ady Zharif my BELOVED BOYFRIEND for being such as a very good photographer on that day even he seems very lazy, he's worried bout his butt, might be missing in action kot? hahaha

:) OKAY! BYE ALL! ASSALAMUALAIKUM